My Inner Thoughts

"My Only Resolution: Not Falling for Your Temptations" A Free Verse Poem

Why must you mock me

With your expectations

Of a new reality

an unreasonable change in my body

And In me

See I'd understand

If there was a buffer period

time to live up to this portrait

Of a princess sitting proper

Face looking into the distance

Looking for acceptance

For the less than perfect version of her

That is reality

But no

Instantaneously

I must be her

She who I do no want to be

She who is too perfect to be truly happy

Because effortless perfection takes effort honey

A miserable existence

Just to be what other girls look up to

Making them feel like she is the ultimate goal in the end

Or maybe that is too far back in time

Too "the monarchy is in control"

Let's fast forward to every women posing

In every ad surrounding

Consuming

Walls closing

No escaping it all

Forced to look at their smiling faces

A pose

A 1 2 3 click

Before the hours of editing

Done by men

Who are paid

To create anorexics

Bulimics

Because unrealistic expectations

Have been trending

In recent centuries

Maybe that fits your style better

I will admit

I am no model

And I may be a queen for my mental kingdom made for escaping this type of bs

But I am not a princess

My body is anything but photoshopped picture perfect

But recently someone told me my face is perfect to them

After I said I was going to get a nose job one day

After I revealed one of the many things strangers voices like yours

Have told me I needed

Your will still gets to me

Even after my first midnight kiss before the instant change is supposed to begin

So many empty promises

Resolutions

Meant to resolve every flaw that strangers see when they look at me