Dear Diary,
Sometimes we don't realize we are unhappy until we are broken down...
I got some advice today. Do what makes me feel good.
I need to listen to that advice.
Maybe I'll start painting again or writing stories...
I could do hair and nails and makeup for people...
Being a nice person with a big heart and limitless amounts of forgiveness and a reputation for giving as many chances as you can get... Its hard.
Tomorrow needs to be about me. My family. Not what I can do for anyone else...
I always do for everyone else...
Its not a waste of time. Its not a waste of money. Gifts are gifts for a reason. I spend time with people for a reason.
My love won't fade, but it may change. My hope for a third chance needs to dwindle or I will never be able to go on living my life happily.
I deserve to be happy.
"I don't need you to respect me, I respect me. I don't need you to love me, I love me. But I want you to know you can know me if you just change your mind..." ~Steven Universe (change your mind)
I believe now, after so much pain, that we should all learn to love ourselves before we can be in a committed relationship.
I loved a few times. I will again.
I know that I am mature enough to be friends. It will be difficult at first. But I don't need anyone to validate my worth.
I never needed anyone else to be happy. But I love sharing my happiness with others. I hope that someday may confidence and happiness will rub off onto others.
Tonight I cry. Tomorrow I cry. But tomorrow I will smile. I will laugh. I will love myself.
No more poison between us buddy. I promise.
Thank you...
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Dear Diary...
Non-FictionThis is my diary. Interpret as you will. Before you read on, you must know that some of the entries will be light and fluffy, but some will be very very dark... The only reason I am making this is so that I can vent free of judgment. I wrote two sto...
