Taken for Granted. [Fin]

Hunnie14.

Nang mailabas ko lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko sa pamamagitan ng pagiyak. Nagdesisyon akong magdrive na papunta kina Zy. 

Sabi niya move on and be happy di ba?

Fine! Why don't I start now?

Nang makarating ako kina Zy nagpark na ako sa garahe nila.

"Zy! I wanna go out. Let's go to Chillin' Bar tonight." sabi ko pagkatapos kong humalik sa pisngi niya bilang pagbati.

"You're kinda acting weird now Anj but sure. You gonna drink?" tanong niya nang nakayakap sa braso ko habang papasok kami ng bahay nila.

"On the second thought, wag na sa Chillin'. Let's go somewhere we can dance." Nakangiting sabi ko sa kanya.

"Sure, want me to text Cams?"

"Nope. Gusto ko tayo lang. May dress ka ba dyan na pwede kong isuot?"

"Of course. Want a pink or purple dress?"

"You wear pink, I wear purple. Let's find someone tonight." Sabi ko sabay kindat sa kanya. Tila nagtataka siya sa mmga kinikilos ko. It's like a brand new expressions na nakikita niya sa akin. Hindi ko siya masisisi for about a year I've been a living dead.

"Uh.. Sure. Let's eat na muna then, we'll get ready na for tonight." hinila na niya ako papuntang kusina nila.

After awhile napansin naming 4pm na pala. So we decided to get ready na. sabi ko kasi kanina inom muna kami sa Chillin' para uminom. Then by 10 pm punta na kami ng Metrowalk.

Ang tagal pa naman namin parehas magayos kaya ninabot na kami ng 7pm bago nakaalis.

"Let's use our own cars, convoy tayo." tumango naman siya.

I'm wearing an above the knee super fitted purple dress. Pinlantsa namin yung buhok ko to keep it straight. There's no use of curling my hair. walang epekto sa buhok ko yun though I would really love to have it curled.

Sumakay na ako ng kotse ganun din si Zy. Binaba niya yung window ng kotse niya tapos sinenyasan ako na mauna na ako. I did.

Nakarating kami sa Chillin' after 30 minutes. Nagpark na ako, lumabas ng kotse at sumandal sa pintuan nun. I was pretty amazed by the moon's sight at the moment. It makes me feel like I'm turning into someone I would never thought I'll be. I still don't know what that is but my instincts says that it'll be something I'm not gonna like forever.

Naglabas ako ng isang stick ng sigarilyo at sinindihan yun.

After almost a year with Irvine I stopped smoking. When he's gone, I suddenly found myself smoking again. Nilipad ng malamig na hangin ang mahaba kong buhok. hinawi ko yun sa pamamagitan ng pag-iling. That's what I like about my hair, madaling ayusin though mahaba siya.

Nakita ko na si Zy na nagpark. Lumabas na siya ng kotse at lumapit sa akin. 

"You're smoking again?" nagtatakang tanong niya.

"Yep." maikling sagot ko.

Napailing siya at sumandal na rin sa kotse ko.

"Zy, do you know something about Irvine's letter for me?" nilingon ko siya.

"Yup." hindi siya tumingin sa akin. Mukhang di na rin siya nagulat na nakita ko na yung sulat. Oh well, I guess she's just waiting for me to see it.

"How long has it been to my car's dashboard?" humithit ko then bumuga.

"After he's gone." napalingon ako ulit sa kanya. That long? Tss. I must be so preoccupied not to notice it.

"Pero binigay ko yun sa'yo not to add insult to the injury. I want you to know that it's not he's own decision to leave you. And to be honest, I've been in touch with him up until now. He knows everything we do. Alam din niyang nagyaya ka ng lumabas ngayon. He called me after I texted him awhile ago. He said he's glad you're back on the track but his voice says the otherwise. Men, how could they be so dumb?" tumawa siya ng mapait.