mental health hospital || ethan

33 || this is the effect you have over me

I knocked on his door

" come in " he mumbled

I opened the door and he looked at me then looked away , ignoring me like he said he would in his notebook

" ethan " I said sitting down next to him

He ignored me playing around with his clothes so he would find something to distract him

" ethan " I said again

He still ignored me

" ethan look at me " I said grabbing his hand and holding it in mine

He looked up at me and sighed looking back down

" stop ignoring me ethan , please " I whispered

" scarlet I'm dangerous , I have problems with the voices and other things . You have to let me go " he whispered in defeat looking up at me again

" I can't ethan , you have an impact on me " I said looking into his eyes

" scarlet-" he said

I cut him off by kissing him , our lips attaching to the others

I placed my hand on his cheek as we continued kissing

" ethan don't give up please " I whispered against his lips pulling away slightly

" scarlet , I can't risk putting you in the position I did before . I made you cry scarlet . You saw the monster I am . I'm not good enough for you , you need to find someone better than me " he said tears filling his eyes

" I want you though " I said tears starting to come to my eyes

" I want you too but I can't " he replied with

I closed my eyes as I hung my head low letting out soft cries

Ethan sighed and engulfed me into a hug

" I'm sorry scarlet " he whispered into my ears rubbing my back

" please " my voice cracked

" please try " I said

" scarlet -" he started off but I cut him off

" I'm not letting go of you ethan , I'll fight for you because I want to be with you " I said pulling away and grabbing his hand placing it on my chest

" this is how you make me feel when I'm around you " I explained holding tightly onto his hand that was placed on my chest feeling my heart beat fast

" this is the effect you have over me and I can't let it go " my voice said cracking at the end

" I'm not gonna give up ethan "

He grabbed both of my hands and kissed them making my heart flutter

" you're too precious for this world " he sighed kissing my cheek