Trapped In Silk [bxb]

09- Nothing Is As It Seems

Let's talk about life for a second.

If God exists, I would sue him for inventing it.

I'm honestly so sick of everything it's crazy. I just feel so empty. Like I'm missing something. But what could I be missing? I'm a spoiled ass teenager with semi-loving parents.

I'm over it. So so so over it.

One day it'll all be over and I just can't wait for that day.

Everything is just so pointless and I can't handle it anymore.

Just end my suffering now.

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Turn out I just needed to rewatch a few seasons of Dance Moms to get out of my sad boi hours.

Thank everything above for Abby Lee Miller and these fucked up moms.

Now I'm just hanging out with Kai listening to Billie Eilish while he plays on his iPad.

I never really understood parents gave their kids electronics at a young age. My age was adamant in making me wait until I was 16 to get my first phone.

I guess things are different with my half brother.

But it doesn't really matter to me. I love Kai with all my heart. He's the only person in this damn house that keeps me sane.

Plus, Mason leaves me alone when I'm with Kai, so that's a plus.

Kai is really just the sweetest thing you could ever ask for. He is unbelievably smart. I wish I was as smart as him when I was his age. Hell, I'm barely passing my classes now.

"Acey..." Kai says unsurely.

"Hmm?" I hum, not really focusing because I've been trying to listen to this new album since it came out but didn't really have the time.

"Are you gay?" He asks quietly.

I look over to him. His face is red and he won't make eye contact. I don't understand why he's so embarrassed to ask.

"No, I'm bisexual," I answer, trying to sound as normal as I can so he calms down a little.

He looks at me confused for a second, cheeks getting redder, "What's bisexual?"

"It means that I like boys and girls. Like my dad," He lays his head on my shoulder while we're laying down, "He used to be married to a girl. My mom. Now he's married to your dad."

"Oh." He answers. "Does that means you're gonna get a boyfriend?"

I chuckle a little, "No probably not."

"Why not?"

"Because I'm not over someone," I answer with a small pain-filled smile.

Kai seems to notice my change in attitude because he snuggles into me and stays silent. After about a half hour, Kai was asleep.

Mason knocked on the door before opening it. I guess it's Kai's bedtime.

I don't exactly know why. But I just started crying. Tears ran down my face and I couldn't stop them. Mason noticed this and stopped walking towards my bed, probably to take Kai to bed.

"Ace?" Mason says softly.

After hearing my name, everything started to get dark. I tried to stand up but just succeeded in falling to the floor.

The last thing I heard before completely blacking out was the single word--

--Neo.

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Big fucking oof. OH MY GOD. 

Anywho, this is a short as chapter oh my god. I promise I'll get better sometime.

Maybe. 

Q: Did you guys hear Billie Eilish's new album yet? What were your thoughts?

-L.T