The Secret Love

Chapter 34

34: HOME

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Yvo

Mahigit isang linggo mula nang magkita sila ni Ella sa Dallas, Texas. Hindi na nabigyan ng pagkakataong kausapin niya ang dating kasintahan dahil biglang naging hectic ang schedule niya. His past is not that important for now. At least 'yon ang kanyang itinatak sa isipan. Good thing, he knows where she live and can come back anytime if he wants.

He'd learned enough. He can't prioritize his personal problems over important matters. Until now kinukulit padin siya ni Nova kaya mas lalong sumasakit ang ulo niya. She's still bragging that he still loves Ella and holding on to his past. Some part of it is true, but when he saw her in Texas, he decided that she was not the Ella he wanted to get back with.

All he wants is closure. Yon lang yon. May panghihinayang siyang nararamdaman, pero mas nanaig padin ang ang pagkamuhi niya sa ginawa nito. Andoon padin ang sakit na iniwan nito. He was betrayed. He lost himself to love again. Nalilito man ay sigurado siyang wala na siyang babalikan kay Ella. Before, he had never wanted a woman as he wanted her. But now, tila naging malabo na. Nabahiran na ng pagkalito, galit at pagkabalisa ang puso niya to the point that he just wanted to let go all of those feelings. Si Ella lamang ang nagparamdam sa kanya ng ganoon He didn't want to return to the pain he had endured for a long time.

He can pick any woman he wants to produce an heir. Display wife but not to the extent of loving like you could give all the world to her, leaving nothing for yourself but heartache in the end. He's done with that. It's time to reserve for yourself and guard your heart, so you will end up nothing. He's tired of feeling those regrets, and he's tired of questioning himself kung ano ba ang nagawa niyang pagkakamali. The fact na binigay na niya ang lahat pero sa huli kulang parin. Ang masakit iiwan ka pa kahit willing ka namang gawin ang lahat para sa kanya. Hindi naman siguro masamang maging selfish paminsan-minsan.

He sighed as he looked at the glass wall. Nakapamulsa siya while looking at the sunset peacefully.

Natigil ang pag-iisip niya nang kung anu-ano nang tumunog ang ringtone ng kanyang phone.

"Hello." He answered the phone. It was Servo.

"Kuya, we are here at right now. Si mommy isinugod dito. She can't breathe." He's panicking.

"What?!" Agad siyang nagmamadaling lumabas ng opisina. Halos paliparin na niya ang kotse papuntang hospital.

Naabutan niya si Mica, Jaime and Servo na nakabantay sa labas ng ICU room. Their Mom is really in a bad condition. Namumugto ang mga mata ni Mica at halos wala ng energy ang dalawa niyang kapatid nang sulyapan siya nito. Nanlulumo siyang nakatingin sa labas ng pintuan. Mula sa kinatatayuan ay tanaw niya ang ina na may nakasaksak na oxygen. Wala sa sariling napawak siya sa transparent na salamin at mabigat na humugot ng hangin. Nasa Malaysia ang Daddy niya, sumama sa kanyang Tito William for business conference.

Maya-maya ay umupo siya sa tabi ni Jaime.

"What happened?" Naitanong niya pagkatapos ng ilang sandaling pananahimik.

"Her heart is weak." Jaime said, yumuko ito at napakamot sa ulo tanda ng stress.

"Kuya, I'm so sorry.. sorry." Niyakap siya ni Mica sa tagiliran. "It's my fault. It's all my fault."

Hinagod niya ang likod ng kapatid at pinakalma. It seems that nagkaroon ng argument sa bahay kaya humantong sa ganito. But he couldn't ask her at this moment. Gusto niya munang marinig na stable na ang kundisyon ng kanilang ina. Humihikbi padin si Mica at ayaw niyang dumagdag ito sa nangyayari ngayon.

"We'll talk about this later but for now Mica, please calm down. It won't help Mom." Anas niya habang hinahagod nito ang likuran ng kapatid.

"Mom and I had discussions and then I was.." Pumiyok ang boses nito at humagulhol na naman. Mica is pretty emotional. Pumikit siya dahil hindi niya alam ang gagawin ngayon.