Back at home, I sighed as I looked at the tremendous amounts of homework in my hand. I thought senior year was supposed to be ease, but it looks like AP classes didn't count.
And then I had an idea. Before I could even blink, I was out the door of my room and inside of Josie's.
If I could just find her notes, I'd be set. I'd have most of the help I needed. I searched through her desk, pulling out any notebook I saw. When I'd found them all, I picked up the stack and headed back to my bed.
I was careful as I set them down. I didn't want to crinkle any pages. These were all Josie's things. They contained her handwriting, parts of her life.
I opened one of them up. It was for science, so I placed it to the side to go through later. I needed history for now, because Mrs. Drew wasn't taking it easy on me.
The next one was Calculus, which I'd definitely need later. But the third one I opened wasn't for school.
It was filled with writing, and dates to go with it. Josie had a journal.
I couldn't stop one of the tears that were forming from slipping, but I pushed the rest back before they could stain the page like the first one.
The first entry was from January 1st.
I didn't want it to happen. But he wouldn't listen. He kept telling me I needed to be quiet, slapping me when I kicked him.
I was sore in the morning. But it was nothing compared to the depression that smacked into me like a semi truck.
I lost myself. Every part of me I thought I had.
I wished I hadn't told mom it was okay for her to go on a date with dad that night. I wish I hadn't snuck out of the house to go cliff jumping with Carson. I wish Carson hadn't left early. I wish I hadn't accepted the ride back to my house with him. I wish that I could take back everything that happened.
There's a lot of things I wished hadn't happened, but no matter how many times I prayed for a redo, I'm still facing the same day.
January 1st.
By the time I had finished reading the page, the tears were coming uncontrollably as I reached for my phone through my sight, blurred from tears.
I found Carson's contact quickly and called it, trying to keep my eyes from leaking.
Carson picked up on the second ring. The second I heard his voice, I lost it again. "Elle, hey." When he heard my sniffling, his tone changed to concern. "Ellie? What's wrong?"
"Josie," I said, heaving in a deep breath. "I... I think I know why."
"Why what?" From the way he spoke, I was pretty sure he had an idea of what I was talking about, but he wanted clarification.
My words were shaky when I was finally able to say them. "I think I know why she killed herself, Carson."
"What?" Now he was alarmed.
"I think... I think Josie was raped."
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Waterproof
Teen FictionAfter Josie's unexpected death, her sister Elle is determined to figure out why it happened. Along for the ride, Josie's best friend, Carson wants to help Eleanor figure out the reason for Josie's sudden death. What they find with it, though, surpr...