The Complicated Love Story(COMPLETED)

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Chapter 15

Let Go

I woke up with a heavy feeling in me. Pakiramdam ko nawalan na ako ng lakas sa lahat ng bagay. I know this is just stupid heartbreak. But what can I do? We can't teach our heart like we also think about it.

Ngayon na wala ng Dino sa tabi ko, wala ng maghahatid at sundo sakin. I can't ride on his car again. I can't go near him anymore. And I'm losing my right to him now. Even if I'm his fake girlfriend.

Tutal ay wala na rin naman akong gana sa lahat, napagpasya ko na huwag nalang pumasok. I'm sure, heartbreak makes my professor understand my situation. But something came up in my mind.

Today, Dino will confess his feelings!

Adrenaline rushed into my body. Nanginginig ang mga kamay ko habang nagtitipa ng sasabihin kay Dino. This is the day, right? I can't be wrong.

To: Dino

Dino... Please tell me, this is only a dream. Susunduin mo naman ako ngayon diba? Dating gawi?

Sinundan ko pa iyon ng isa.

To: Dino

Tell me you were joking that time

Wala ng pumapasok sa utak ko kundi itong plano niya ngayong umaga. I look at the time and it's freaking 10:36 am. The class is still going. I wonder if tapos na niyang nasabi o hindi pa? May klase pa ngayon si Fatima!

To: Dino

Ngayon naba talaga? Nasaan ka?

Mabilisan akong naligo at nagayos. Dapat naisip ko na iyon at pumasok! I can't stop him but I want to be there when he will confess his feelings towards Fatima. Pait ang aking nararamdaman habang naiisip 'yon.

I stop combing my hair when my phone start ringing. at last.  Nanlaki ang mata ko nang makita si Dino iyon at dali daling binuksan ang kanyang message.

From: Dino

Stop it, Cass. I'm waiting after her class

I can't just stood up right here and waited for it to happen! I want to see it. Kapag nangyari na iyon, unti unti ko nang papakawalan na si Dino. I can't do with his feelings. Gusto niya si Fatima at hindi ko na iyon mababago.

I will make my self a better person. This will be my last stupid decision for him. Masasaktan lamang ako kung makikita ko iyon at maririnig pero ano? Siya pa rin talaga. Mahal ko, e.

I walk quickly to the building where Fatima and I have the same room. Hindi ako pumasok at pwede akong pagalitan ng makakasalubong kong professor but I don't care, now! I want to be there for him and that's my last drop.

Naramdaman ko nalang bumagal ang lakad ko nang makita si Dino. Umawang ang bibig ko at napagpasyang hanggang dito nalang ako. Atleast kahit nandito ay kitang kita ko pa rin siya.

His peircing eyes are still intimidating. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko habang pinagmamasdan siya. My feelings didn't change a bit. My eyes fell on his hand, holding a bunch of red rose.

Siguro ay ibibigay niya iyon kay Fatima. Funny how things work, ni isang piraso ng bulaklak hindi niya ako nabigyan. O well, what's my role again? A damn fake girlfriend.

Nang marinig na ang ring sa speaker ay mas bumigat ang paghinga ko. He fixed his hair instantly as students go out of their room. He looks tensed and at the same time his eyes were sleepy. Parang nangsusuyo talaga sa isang gusto niya.

Dinig na dinig ko lahat ng mga usapan nila. It's like my heart slashed in every single word. But my betrayer heart was unable for me to leave. Dammit! Nasasaktan na nga ako, bakit hindi ko pa magawang umalis?

It hurts me how he looked Fatima in his eyes. It was a gentleness and sincerely in it. That I have never experienced him. Because I'm just his fucking friend.

Gulat na gulat si Fatima sa nangyayari at biglang pagamin ni Dino. I want to know what he feels and what he thinks. Alam ko na ang magiging resulta and I should be happy for it pero bakit mas lalo lang akong nasasaktan?

The time has really come. This is the end of it. Wala ng natira para sa sarili ko.

"I like you, Fatima. I don't know when it started but damn, I can't take my eyes on you."

Akala ko ay matatanggap ko na 'yon pagkatapos kong marinig ngunit mas lalo lamang bumuhos ang mga luha ko at sa hindi ko inaasahan, kumawala ang mga hikbi saaking bibig.

They heard it and turned to me.Fatima's eyes widened. I didn't see them because they were blurred because of my tears. I stepped back and left.

Why is this happening to me? Napasama ba ang pagtulong ko? Yes, I regret all what I did but what can I do? I love him very much and even if he'll be with me just a little time, I'll do it. I'll bet for the moment.

I need to stop this insaneness of mine. It's not like he's my world.  At ang tanga tanga ko pa kasi dito sa bench ng garden pa ako pumunta. This was the place we used to talked. But I think the wind and scenario here is just so relaxing and peaceful.

My peaceful feelings bring to an end when I heard a quick and violent footsteps approaching near me.  Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Alam ko na agad kung sino ito. Pero bakit? Bakit niya ako sinundan?

I opened my puffy eyes and look at him bravely. Napaitlag ako sa sarili nang magtama ang paningin namin. His eyes were bloodshot and the anger was the evidence on it.

I ignore it and make my self brave, infront of him.

"Anong ginagawa mo dito? Bakit mo 'ko sinundan?" Even I got my bravest tone I still heard my voice shaking a bit.

Nanatili ang kanyang mga galit na mata sakin. O, ano? Galit ka sakin? Nakaramdam ako ng iritasyon dahil 'don.

"Dahil ba sinabi niya? O come on! Dapat siya ang sinundan mo, pagkakataon na 'yon!"

Pinantayan ko ang kanyang galit na mata but then I can't still handle it and avoid my eyes on him. Nagagawa niya pa rin akong lusawin sa mga tingin na iyan? Dammit!

Naalerto ako nang bigla siyang humakbang. I can feel his hotness because right now, he's fumming mad. Dahil ba sa sinabi ko? O, come on!

"Tell me..." his cold voice send shiver to me.

"She said, she like someone else. Do you know about this?"

Napaangat ang tingin ko dahil sa kanyang sinabi. Fatima said that to him?  I chuckled for what he said. Now he can feel what I am feeling, right now.

"Sinabi niyang may gusto siyang iba? Sinabi niya 'yon? How is it feel?" sinadya kong lagyan ng pangaasar saaking tuno.

He frowned more and his jaw clenched repeatedly. I know he's mad and hurt pero may karapatan pa ba ako 'don?

I can't do anything stupid, now!

"Masakit ba? Ganoon rin ako ngayon e. I should be happy that one of you didn't like back but why I can't?"

Namungay ang mata ko, naaawa para saamin dalawa. Bakit hindi nalang kasi kami? Kaming dalawa. His jaw clenched like I aggravated more for what I said. 

"Sinong gusto niya?" he asked, desperately.

He hold my both arms, firmly. My eyes widened from his touch. Halos masaktan ako roon. Umiling ako sa kanyang ginagawa ngayon at matapang na tumayo upang mahawi iyon.

Ang nakakunot niyang noo ay nanatili pa rin sakin. He's fustrated, mad, and heartbroken as same as mine. And I won't pity my self anymore.

"No. I don't like you. I love you, but it doesn't mean I'll let myself be a fool again. I'm letting you go, Dino..."

It's so much hurting but it's for my best.