NOSE BLEED //:A BTS fan fiction

The Time Has Come

I just stay silent for a second

"I'm sorry for doing that to you" he says as he stops

I turn to face him

I can feel the tears hit my cheeks as he hugs me tightly

"it hurts so much" I sob into his chest

"I know I know, I'm sorry" he strokes my back lightly

I feel my emotions flare up, maybe a little to much. I pull away a little and look up at him

"ill talk to them okay? Its just....... They are still adjusting to having you here and don't tell them I told you.... But they are still hurting from not having you around, V still cries at night even though you are here and Jimin still doesn't sleep and I know you haven't noticed but Jin hasn't been eating or doing much of anything properly. Jungkook still calls your name in his sleep and jhope isn't the happy virus he was anymore. Yoongi has suffered a lot to, so have I. All of this happens when your not around, I just want you to know that we still love and care for you deeply and that we haven't forgotten about you. In all honesty we don't even know what to say to you or even act around you"he says, he seems to be holding back tears

I don't know what to say so I just hug him tightly and sob into his chest

"I'm sorry for being so stupid" I cry "if only I didn't go on that stupid walk"

"no don't say stuff like that, your still alive and that's all that matters" he says as he rests his chin on my head

I just nod

I should have shot myself when I had the chance

Life after death is torture , maybe this is just my hell. I can't even die, do you know how horrible that feels?

He pulls away and looks at me

"now let's go before they begin to worry" he says with a small smile

I reach up and wipe away a stray tear from his cheek, i nod and hold his hand

He pulls me through the corridor until I hear someone walking around and checking that everyone is in their dorms

I look around to see a closet, I quickly pull him in and he looks at me confused

He opens his mouth to talk but I quickly put my hand over his mouth, I shush him quickly, I motion to outside and the person walks past

I move my hand and we stay like it until I hear the person walk off and through a door

I let out a breath I didn't realise I was holding

"how do you know" he whisper chuckles

"my hearing has become a lot better so I heard them coming" I chuckle as I open the door

We walk out and I pull him down the corridor to the dorms, he stops outside of a door

"this is me, I'll see you tomorrow okay?" he says as he hugs me, I hug him back for a second and nod

I pull away

"see ya!" I say as I run off down the corridor

Now that I'm alone my thoughts come back and I can feel myself becoming a little angry

My while body hurts, especially my chest

I just want to crawl into a ball and scream

I hold my head as I walk down the corridor, suddenly a very obvious drunk guy stumbles out of a room

He looks at me and smirks a little

"hey!" he says as he grabs my wrist

I'm seriously not in the mood for this, I feel my anger boiling up

He slams me against the wall and traps me in between his arms, he is very attractive

He begins to lean in, what the hell is going on?

Maybe I can just relieve some anger and stress

When hes down to my level I place my hands on his neck and pull him in

I kiss him roughly, he's a little shocked at first but he kisses me back

Why am I doing this?

Fuck it, I might even need this

I push him to the other side of the corridor and push him up against the wall

He places his hands on my waist and pulls me closer, I deepen the kiss

My anger boils up and I can't help it, I pull away and move my lips to his neck, he let's out a small moan

I feel my face turn, oh shit

I can't help it, my self control has just gone out the window

I pull away and quickly pull him into a storage room, I shove him against the wall and kiss him aggressively

What?

Stop you idiot

I can't help it

I move my lips to his neck, my face turns and I can't help it, its like something took over my body

I bite him and take a large chunk out of his neck

All thought goes out the window as blood drips down my chin

I bite the other side of his neck, his body becomes weak but he's not screaming or making any noise

Blood spills down my chin and all over my clothes

Stop it

You have killed him

I bite him a few times until something clicks in my mind

What have I done?

I back away slowly and his limp body falls to the floor.

What the fuck have you done, you monster

I bring my hands to my mouth and I wipe a little. I look down at me hands to see blood

I'm a monster

I double over and try to throw up but nothing is coming out

The worst part is, I enjoyed it

I begin to cry hysterically and fall to me knees, I've just killed an innocent person

What do I do? Everyone will hate me

I'm a monster, I should have killed myself when I had the chance

I stand back up, the guilt and panic starting to kick in. I need some help with this but I don't know where to go

The only person I can think of is wonho but he will hate me

I take my hat off and run my hands through my hair

I don't want to be around them, what if I kill them?

I begin to sob a little, if someone finds me than they will try and kill me, but I won't die

Even if I deserve it

I need to ask my friends for help, if they kill me, they kill me its better then living

I open the door and look around, there's no one around and the only light is coming from under the doors of the doors

The closest dorm is V, Namjoon and Jimin