NOSE BLEED //:A BTS fan fiction

The Letters

I stay there as raindrops begin to fall, I don't know what to think or even do at this point

I want to run far away but I k ow they need me

But everyone I love seems to be slipping through my fingers

And the worst part of it is that I can't do anything about it

I stand there until it becomes light and the rain becomes light again

I grip the jumper tight and hug it to my chest as I walk back into the library

Everyone just stares at me as I walk up the stairs, they open their mouths to say stuff but nothing seems to come out

Jo begins to stir awake, I quickly run into the office and lock the door behind me, I can't face them, not now

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1 month time skip

I've spent days, weeks even in this office, the only time I would leave I'd leave is at night only to get food and water

I'd take late night showers, just to help with sleep. As you can imagine, I haven't been getting a lot of that

It still hurts and I still cry from time to time but I think my heart has started to repair itself. I think I'm getting used to not seeing him everyday, I finally have come to terms with what has happened and I accept it

He's in a much better place now, he's with our friends

The boys have tried to talk to me through the door, V will sit there for hours just rambling about their days and how much he misses me, I want to reply but I just don't think I can not yet anyway

Jin will just come and say hi but he always ends up giving a lecture on how I'm just making myself feel worse, he ends up saying that he's sorry

Namjoon just asks me to come out and talk, he's the only one I've managed to speak to, I don't ever come out I just sit with my back against the door. He usually talks about just everyday stuff, it just makes me feel normal

Yoongi just says hi and that he loves me, he always says that him and the boys love me. It makes me feel warm and fuzzy

Jimin brings Jo and Al, they just talk to me nonsense to each other and occasionally persuade me to come out

Jhope tries to tell me stupid jokes, I always laugh, he makes me feel happy, like a Ray of sunshine

Jungkook has cried a lot, hes told me about how his parents abandoned him and how he found the rest of the boys, he never leaves with out telling me he loves me

Come to think of it now, maybe I am ready to face them

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2 month time skip

I slowly managed to come out of the office and talk to them all, I don't have a moment to myself anymore but I'm okay with it

I love them all and I couldn't imagine not having them glued to my side

I've become partially close with Jin, I even started to have a small crush on him but I don't plan on doing anything, I'm not even ready to delve back in to anything like that

I'll just wait it out

V found some board games and we are playing jenga, I'm pretty bad at it but yoongi is secretly helping me

I accidentally made them all drop and make a loud noise

They all laugh at me

"noona is so bad at this games" Jo chuckles as he began to set them back up