Grey & Green (Harry Styles AU)

2. Good girls

Betrayal is one of the worst feelings in the world if not the worst. I couldn’t believe that the person I trusted with everything I had betrayed me. He promised he would never tell anyone about my darkest secret but he did. And he told my secret to people he refers to as the ‘wrong crowd’. They probably laughed at me when he told them, they probably thought I was the stupidest girl in the world.

I ran all the way to my dorm because I didn’t want anyone to see me sobbing. As I had predicted I ended up crying myself to sleep.

Michael tried to call me a few times but I never picked up, he also texted me a few times saying he was worried about me and asking where I was but I couldn’t get myself to text him back.

This was supposed to be a fresh start because no one knew about what happened on my junior year of high school. But now that my brother’s friends know they will judge me and probably tell everyone and I don’t know if I can handle the shame. I just can’t believe he told Harry. I don’t know Harry at all but from what I’ve gathered he’s a jerk and he’s probably gonna mock me for the entire time we’re in college.

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I woke up the next morning at 6A.M because I needed to talk to my brother before school starts. I tried to call him at least 10 times but he never picked up so I got dressed with the same clothes I wore last night and got ready for my first day of college.

I texted Michael saying I’m sorry for last night and explained that I wasn’t feeling well and he texted back saying it was okay but next time I need to tell him if I want to leave the party and he’ll just come with me. Michael seems like a really nice guy, I hope he never finds out about my past.

I walk to small coffee shop and as soon as I step inside I see Harry and Ally sitting on the same table they were at yesterday and I decide to ignore them. They’re the people I least wanna see right now.

I order my coffee and as much as I tried not to get noticed by them Ally calls me to their table. Just my luck.

“Hey guys,” I greet them quietly. I’m so embarrassed that they know about all of the bad things I did. They probably called me over to their table to make fun of me for it.

“Hi! How come I didn’t see you at the party last night? It was thrown by your brother I would expect to see you there,” Ally says smiling. I had no idea it was my brother’s party. That explains why he couldn’t hang out with me. I wanted to be sad that he didn’t invite me but I know he had a good reason not to.

“Um…I don’t really go to parties.” I try to give her an explanation without embarrassing myself any further. I don’t know why she even asked me, by now she probably knows why I can’t go to pasties.

“Oh so you’re a good girl.” What she just said couldn’t be further from the truth. I wish I was a good girl, life would be so much easier if I were.

I expect Harry to make some joke about me not being a good girl but instead he clears his throat and changes the subject.

“So have you made any friends yet?” I’m surprised my his question because he doesn’t seem like the kind of person to care. He’s probably just looking for a chance to make a joke about me.

“Not really. I’ve met some people but I don’t think we’re friends yet.” Ally tells me to seat with them and I wanted to politely decline but I didn’t.

“Don’t worry you have tons of time to make friends. And you can always hang out with us,” Ally offers. I can tell Ally is just being nice and Harry doesn’t like it because as soon as she says it he scowls at her.