My eyes widened a little and she sat on the edge of my bed. "You're pregnant?"
There was no point lying. I sniffed before nodding. "Is that why you've been so sad?" I nodded and she shook her head, looking at me. "Cat, why? A baby is a blessing. Is it because you're still uni? Who cares, it's-"
I interrupted her by beginning to sob. Her face softened and she leaned over, hugging me as I cried in her arms. "Cat?" I continued to cry, my body shaking and my mind thinking of what happened.
"Caterina, darling, please. What's going on?" She asked, pulling away and wiping my cheeks as I sniffed, hiccuping. "Mama. ." I whispered and her face softened even more, her eyes getting teary. "Cat, honey, you're scaring me." More tears ran down my cheeks and I shook my head, covering my face. "I-I'm p-pregnant. ."
"I know, dear, but what's wrong? Do you not want the baby? Is it the father - who's the father?"
I uncovered my face, breathing heavily and crying. I started shaking my head but couldn't stop. I was hyperventilating, shaking and crying. I was having a panic attack.
She was talking to me, telling me to calm down, to breathe in and out but I couldn't. My mind was telling me that I couldn't.
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Isn't that what I'm doing?
"Can't. ." I breathed out, still panicking. "Mama. .I can't b-breathe. .I'm going to. .to die. ."
"Cat. ." I heard her say, taking my hands and looking into my teary eyes. "Calm down, baby. In and out slowly, in and out."
I listened to her soothing voice, my breathing pattern slowing down and returning to it's normal pace after time.
She pulled me into a hug, kissing my cheek. "Cat, please tell me what's wrong?"
I pulled away, looking into her eyes with tears in mine. "I was. ." I shook my head, wiping my eyes as more tears came and my breathing pattern started to speed up again only to be slowed down by my mother, calming me down.
I exhaled slowly, wiping my eyes and sniffing. "I was. ." I looked at my mother's kind and concerned eyes. I couldn't say the word. I felt like like I was going to throw up.
"Mama, I was . . he . ." I sighed, covering my face and exhaling slowly. Why can't I say it.
I moved my hands away quickly and forced the words out. "I was raped."
There was a moment of silence where I stared at my hands, unable to meet her eyes.
Then I heard her crying. I looked up to see her hands covering her face while she sobbed, her body shaking.
I swallowed, ". .mu-mum?"
She then unexpectedly pulled me into a hug, crying. I hugged her back, closing my eyes. No tears came out for me. I must have used them up. I just sat there hugging her and allowing her to cry for me.
It was a while until she pulled away and gazed at me, wiping her eyes. "Oh, Cat." I looked away, blinking back the tears in my eyes. I hesitated before saying, "it hurt. .a lot. ." I started, sniffing. I swallowed before continuing, "I came out of the shower a-and a man - a man from d-dad's work was in there-"
"From your dad's work?" She asked, her voice filled with surprise and I nodded, sniffing.
"He called me beautiful, just like you," I bitterly said, thinking about him. "Then he put his dirty hands on me and tried to kiss me. I pushed him away b-but then he grabbed me and t-took off my towel," I explained, my voice cracking as tears ran down my cheeks. "H-He threw me on the bed and took away my virginity forcefully." I was crying by then, unable to see properly because of my tears. "He thought I liked it. That I liked it. No, I didn't. I screamed and screamed and screamed but no one could hear me. I was alone."
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Vincenzo's Lover
Romance(Cover by: @mayamarip0sa- thank you!) TO REWRITTEN! Mia Feather couldn't help but fall in love with one of the most biggest Mafia leaders, Vincenzo Rossi. She was kind, sweet and innocent. Too good for someone as bad as him. Vincenzo Rossi was powe...
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