My maybe crazy life

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Jeg er alene hjemme med Justin og Jackson, da Calum er i studiet hele dagen og gæt hvem der tog en ekstra lang lur og hvem der ikke vil tage sin lur. Så i mens Justin raner rundt i huset fordi han sov ekstra længe, prøver jeg og få Jackson til og sove og det er et stort PRØVER. Han vil bare ikke sove og jeg har gjordt alt, givet ham flasker, skiftet ham, sunget godnat sange og en masse andre ting men han vil bare ikke sove. Så jeg prøver med en ny sang nu.

I drove by all the places
we used to hang out getting wasted
thought about our last kiss
How it felt, the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me
you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely
even though he's right besides you
When he says those words that hurt you
Do you read the ones I wrote you

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

[Chorus:]
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me
They're still living in my phone
I admit I like to see them,
I admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy,
yeah it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name
when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

[Chorus]

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

[Chorus]

I'm not fine at all
'Cause I'm not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm not fine at all

"Kom nu sov Jackson" ber jeg ham. Han skriger og græder igen. Okay ny sang, måske en af 4 ever crazy's sange.

Put your makeup on
Get your nails done, grow your hair
Run the extra mile
Keep it slim, so they like you
Do they like you?

Get your sexy on
Don't be shy, girl, take it off
This is what you want
To belong, so they like you
Do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

Get your shopping on
At the mall, max your credit cards
You don't have to choose
Buy it all, so they like you
Do they like you?

Wait a second
Why should you care what they think of you?
When you're all alone
By yourself, do you like you?
Do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to bend until you break
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try

Take your makeup off
Let your hair down, take a breath
Look into the mirror at yourself
Don't you like you?
'Cause I like you.

Endelig sover han, så det Justin jeg skal ha til og slappe af. "Justin" kalder jeg stille ind i stuen, jeg hår ind i stuen og ser han er faldet om i sofaen og sover trygt. Jeg samler ham op og går op på hans værelse og ligger ham i hans seng. Jeg går ind i stuen og tænder babyalarmen, jeg ligger mig ned i sofaen og falder langsomt i søvn.