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Happier || KSJ ||

Your POV

I Miss You

What comes into your mind when you hear these three words? 

Ahhh.... well the love for that special someone a long time ago but is now gone, Those feelings were erased. For him but I guess not for you

Trust me I know how you feel. When you miss those memories you both had together. All the fun, the both of you had. All the laughter the two of you shared, but those were just memories from now on.

How you regretted letting go of him. That you knew he was the one, but you were too blind to see what a great future you would have with him, but it's too late for that, now that you were only a memory he treasured with him.

His heart was now mended because he found his new love, while you?

You were crying every night until your pillows were soaked in tears. How stupid of you were to let go of him.

How you really miss him, how he comforts you when you were upset. How both of your hands intertwine while walking late at night under the moon and stars that shined. Oh how you missed his scent, but most of all, that smile

That smile, that would make you blush and that your heart would skip a beat, but that was when before the both of you parted your ways.

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As I was inside a cafe, I saw him. He was with his soon to be wife together having breakfast at the same cafe. How I saw them, so sweet and affectionate to one another other

And me? I'm here, wishing that I was still his girl and that I should be the one he should be with having those sweet and tender moments with.

Seeing him and his fiancé today, stabbed my heart more than a million times.

I couldn't take it so I had to run outside and all of a sudden I broke down into tears.

Tears wouldn't stop flowing

I guess I still do love him, so much. I stopped at the park and sat on the bench palms covering my whole face while sobbing so hard and that was when someone tapped my back.

I looked up to see who it was.

It was the one and only Kim Seokjin.

It had been 8 years since the both of us broke up but the feeling of love for him, never went away

"Hey stop crying" he said sitting beside me

"What do you want? Shouldn't you be with your fiancé?" I asked wiping my tears

"She went ahead with my mom to settle some things for our wedding" he said and silence took over for a moment

"It's been so long" he finally broke the silence after a long pause, looking at me giving a warm smile

After 8 years I finally get to see that smile again. I broke down in tears again and couldn't stop from being emotional. His smile was the one I treasured the most

At that exact moment I wanted to tell him that I still love him and that I regretted letting him go, but to remember he already has his fiancé. He has finally, really moved on

"Hey stop crying" he said again rubbing my back and I'm trying my best to calm down

"I'm actually glad I saw you today" I  just kept quiet and let him continue

"I really miss you, you know. I am really thankful that you happened in my life and that we had those special memories that I will forever treasure and now that I have moved on, I am thankful that I met you and felt what first love was."

Yes, I am his first love but sadly I'm not his last

"You know Y/N, I already found my love and maybe you should too. I mean you're worth for better things, you deserve more, so thank you for everything and my wedding's this weekend. You should come. Here's an invitation."

"Bye Y/N. I hope to see you again, smiling" and with that, he left. As I hold the invitation with a tight grip and a tear of anger, regret, guilt, pain and sadness fell down