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Days || MYG ||

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"Hi love, it's day 354" I greeted even though I know that he can't hear me.

I approach Yoongi laying down on the hospital bed with my wheelchair. Exactly 354 days that I have been counting that he's in coma

I have been Hoping for the past months, weeks and days that he would just wake up. I miss him so much more than you think

I went over beside the bed and caressed his hands "love, I miss you...and I'll even miss you more when I'm gone" tears started to build up but I had to hold it back. I can't cry, I shouldn't.

For the past few months I've been feeling very weak and I have noticed that I have severe infections, excessive sweating, fatigue and I've been losing a lot of weight without even trying. These happened 3 weeks after the doctor told us the news about Yoongi

"I visited a doctor yesterday, love and....I-I have leukaemia" Tears are rolling down my cheeks. I couldn't resist anymore, it hurts so much

"Stage 3, love. I only have a week left. I don't want to be in this hospital lying on a bed for treatment but I just want to spend my last days with you. I want to die peacefully, without any machines on me and doctors checking every minute." I heaved a deep sigh and kissed the back of his hand. I don't care if I'm almost dying, at least I get to see him

"Mom already knows about my cancer and she wasn't approving my request on not treating my diseases but eventually she wanted me to be happy before I go. I wish you were awake now. I miss hearing your voice"

"Well I'll be going now, mom and dad are waiting for me outside. I love you"

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Another day has passed. 6 days remaining. I Wanted to visit Yoongi again so Here I am beside him

"Another day Love. Day 355. I have been very weak. Please just wake up. I just want to hear your voice"

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Days have past I have grown weaker and weaker. I just lay on my bed all the time and not taking any meals. I didn't get to visit Yoongi in the hospital for the past 3 days including today, so I guess I wouldn't be able to see him for the last time. I miss him so much but my life is almost over

Yoongi's POV ~Day 359~

I have woken up seeing a bright light and I looked but my vision is still blurry to see my surroundings clearly. A girl was walking towards the door and I immediately called her

"Y/N?"

"Oh my! You're already awake Mr. Min. Let me call the doctor!" The girl rushed out of the room and of course it was just the nurse......

The nurse went back inside with the doctor. He checked me if I was fine and yes, I was

"Mr. Min I'll just call your parents to inform that you're already awake" The doctor smiled at me and I nodded

Soon after, a knock was heard from the door and as it opened, it revealed my parents and Y/N's, but there was no sign of her

"Where's Y/N?" I ask and all of a sudden their faces were all filled with sorrow, pain and was drained from color. Neither one of them spoke

"Y/N, where is she?" I asked again. My mom approached me and held my hands

"Yoongi, Honey. Y/N... sh-she's gone"

"W-what?" I was trembling. My vision went blurry again but because of the tears building up. This can't be true, right?

"Y/N, she passed away just yesterday.... she had leukaemia, stage 3. We thought she still had a week, but time wasn't by her side" Y/N's dad said letting all of his tears out

"No! I know she's still alive! Come on, stop playing games with me!" I yell, gripping my hands on the bed sheets. I couldn't hold my tears from falling down anymore.

"We're not Yoongi, she really is gone" My dad said

"No I'm going to her right now and I know that she's still alive!" I stood up and rushed to the door, I twisted the door knob ready to head out till Y/N's mom spoke

"Yoongi it's useless. She's gone nothing can change that. We can't do anything about it. I know you can't accept that she's now gone, neither can we but please understand we couldn't bring her back!" She raised her hands whilst her face turned red due to all of the crying. My mom calmed her down and let her sit on the chair and covered her face with her palms

I can't believe it the one I have loved for such a long time, passed away while I was asleep. What did I do to deserve this! Why didn't I just wake up? I didn't get to see her happy face for the last time.

It's all my fault. If this stupid coma didn't happen I could've been by her side protecting and taking care of her! I could've been there......

She was my one and only

"Son Y/N left this note in her room. It's for you" I took the note and read it

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To my dearest Yoongi,

Love, by the time you're reading this, I know that I'm already in a better place. You know how much I miss and love you. Thank you for all the memories. The special times that we've spent. I have always treasured everything. I wish I would be there by the time you wake up but fate didn't allow it. I miss your soothing scent, your tenderly loving embrace, sweet kisses, soft touches and of course your cute gummy smile. You're my one and only but it looks like you have another path to take. God is giving you another chance to find your real someone. You deserve better than me. I guess we were just not meant for each other but you loving me was the best opportunity that God has given me. It was the best experience and I hoped that it would last forever, but I guess it can't be possible anymore. You're now free, free to love someone else. So take that chance to relive your happy ever after. Find someone who can brighten up your world more than I did. And when you already have found her, I hope you love her so dearly and never let her go. Remember that even though I'm not with you physically but I will always be watching you. You will always have a special place in my heart. I love you, I always have and I always will

Love, Y/N

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