STAY WITH ME

seize

dan woke up in a strong hold, but it was different than all the other mornings. he was usually tangled up in phil's tight embrace. like an iron cage that was impossible to get out of. but this morning it was just a strong hold, but careful. like phil was afraid of breaking him. like he was afraid to lose him, so he kept him held tight in a careful embrace.

   dan smiled sadly. all the reality came crashing back down on him. how he was nothing compared to phil. a wonderful masterpiece filled to the brim with beauty and worthiness as dan was a single flowered garden. dan was a hanging petal on the brink of falling, as phil was a blossoming lily in the spring air. he was a masterpiece of a flowing river dotted with gardenias as dan was a rushing waterfall with jagged rocks at the bottom.

he carefully planted a soft kiss on phil's pale lips. hoping not to wake him. wishing only to show his love in a quiet way, as to not bother phil with excessive compassion and love as he did when they were younger. as they did when they were inseparable and so in love it was almost toxic. they couldn't keep their hands to themselves. they couldn't be alone. they were so utterly and indubitably in love. they couldn't stay apart.

   but then something clicked in dan's mind and realized they'd have to part one day. that dan would no longer be a part of the endless garden that filled phil's mind. he would no longer be that thing in phil's life that brought him joy.

   and dan was already afraid he wasn't that thing anymore.