Existent

Losing control.

I'll keep track,

I oblige to know these numbers,

So I'll check them twice a day,

to make sure they don't increase 

but hope to God,

that they reduce.

People are talking, behind closed doors

they say, 

she's going under again,

but I cannot lose control.

And If I add ten, 

I'll lose fifty.

Keep ahead of myself-

I- 

need to keep ahead of myself.