I stand shaking.
My duvet and pillow,
the papers and pens,
my clothes and bag,
every item that I possess
is strewn across the floor
of my bedroom.
And it was all
my
fault
because the anger
the fear and frustration
had lit a fuse deep in my bones that refused to extinguish itself, and thoughts rumbled like a storm in my mind, on a constant loop of destroy, destroy everything, rip it to shreds, tear it all apart and let it burn in the deepest pits of hell, i hate her, i hate them, why? why can't i just be happy for a little bit? why is everything always wrong? am i not enough? am i doing something wrong? everything is too much, too fast and i wish i never met Orsai, i wish i was never friends with her,
I WISH SHE'D DIED.
A.N.
Aaah, a coming-of-age story is never complete without a dash of angst and a dramatic meltdown. I've never personally had this kind of meltdown (conceal, don't feel *ahem*), the closest I've come to something like this was a while ago - kneeling on the ground, half ugly sobs, half hysterical laughter. And that was because of piled up exam stress + dealing with people for a long time. Needless to say, I succeeded in freaking my sister and mum out a bit (a lot) but I slept + took a shower and felt a little bit more alive by the end of it.
Still though, lesson of the day, bottling your feelings until you implode is not a good way of dealing with them.
Hope you're all having a better week than me and Harmony + dealing with everything a little more positively (or at least trying to) ~
- Maoiel
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Soleil And Moonlight - Book 2 | ✔
Short Story[ It was as if the only goddamned way for Harmony to grow was if Orsai was chained to her bed. ] Orsai is alive. Bedridden, but still breathing. Despite the strange events leading up to the accident, Harmony swea...
