His Way To Sainthood

to my beloved mumshies, thank you

Eto na naman tayo sa mga nobelang authors note ko eh, kakasawa minsan anez?

Random HWTSFacts:

1) The dinner with the Faulkerson clan  was never supposed to happen

2) Quen's character was a combination of Mich (neekomeyn on Twitter) and a real life gay friend, Ajay. Someone is flattered.

3) Leo's character is my favorite character. They're my golden trio I feel so accomplished when I write scenes na nandu'n silang tatlo

4)This became slightly angsty bc I don't know what to do about it anymore haha

5) I like /baby/ as a term of endearment so ayun baby

6) Maine was never supposed to get pregnant, but they're really going to part in the end because Richard's still unstable.

7) The original ending: Maine, out of her love for Richard, is going to force him to go back to the rehab and continue the treatment. Richard goes away, without giving an assurance he'd still come back. Several years later, they meet again at Quen's wedding at another country.. and it ends at that. Lol.

Here's an excerpt:

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Hi, I'm Maine Mendoza, 30.

Single.

Ilang beses na akong pinilit ng Nanay at Tatay ko na magpakasal na. Fresh pa rin naman ang fez ko pero ang kulit-kulit talaga nila at sinasabing magpakasal na ako. O kahit mag-boyfriend man lang pero ayaw ko talaga. Bakit ka magpapakasal sa taong hindi mo mahal? Sobrang ancient talaga ng views nila. Kesyo tatanda daw akong dalaga at walang mag-aalaga sa akin. Malulungkot lang daw ako. Dean, during his marriage, even threatened me that he'd leave me at the Home for the Aged kapag hindi talaga ako nagpakasal agad.

Kayo, kamusta na ba kayo? Are you all doing well?

'Wag na kayong magtanong ng details. I showed up in a white, simple dress sa simbahan na pinuntahan namin two years ago pero wala talaga, eh. I told him to show up at ten in the morning, and I was there until seven in the evening. Friends na nga kami ni Father, eh.

Pero wala talaga.

But that's just okay. I know that we don't get everything we wanted in love. Hindi lang naman ako ang broken-hearted sa Pilipinas, 'di ba?

Hindi lang ako 'yung hindi makamove-on for five years now, turning six.

Hey, may kakilala nga ako, seven years ang inabot bago nakapagsimula ulit. At least, may one year pa akong palugit. Hindi ko pa naman nasusungkit 'yong title na 'yon.

Naunahan pa nga akong magpakasal ni Kevin. Grabe talaga 'yung batang 'yun, kinain din lahat ng sinabi nya. Isinayaw pa nga ako nu'ng umattend ako ng kasal nya at inasar na naman akong tatanda akong dalaga. Willing naman daw syang gawin akong mistress since hobby ko raw magpakatanga. Nakakabwisit talaga 'yung batang 'yon at times. Okay, at all times.

My life got boring when he left. Ewan ko, baka parusa ni Lord because I didn't try enough.

Or maybe I did try enough. Talagang hindi lang natin maipilit because the puzzle pieces don't really match at all.

I'm actually amazed how I managed to stay in love all these years. I haven't thought of him for a while now, not until Quen asked me how I was. He was already overseas and we only communicate through video calls na twice a month nangyayari. Everyone had their own lives now, and I guess... people just have to move on.

I don't think about him at all. Seryoso. Baka akusahan nyong isa akong malaking eme pero... hindi talaga. He's just this entity in my head that I can't forget. Maybe because I haven't tried loving another person but that's just it for me. I'm in love with him. Tapos ang usapan. Basta umiibig ako - no follow-up questions are allowed.