Psychotic Lovers

Chapter 4

It has been more than three hours since Sheldon has left. I sat down on the bed with the mirror in my hands staring at the ugly reflection which stares back at me. I was now sporting a swollen black eye and bruised cheek along with a bruise side from receiving multiple kicks from Sheldon's boots.

I've put up with this plenty times before and I should have been used to being beaten by Sheldon whenever he gets angry but this time it just felt worst than all the other times. I don't deserve this at all, he tries to corrupt me and even though I don't want to I still tried to please him by stealing those diamonds for him but he wasn't satisfied. When is Sheldon ever pleased or satisfied though? And whenever he isn't I always ended up feeling it. Tonight was just so much, I had gotten a fine beating from Sheldon for not being able to get him those diamonds. The beating was one thing but even when I thought he was finished and I fell to the floor he proceeded to kick me more than once. How can I survive under these conditions?

I told you to put a stop to it Scar. Take control of your life once again. Take the reins once again Scar, you know exactly what to do.

Maybe I should finally start listening to the voice that has been in my head. That very voice that was speaking to me when I caught Sheldon's cat- Razo. The voice that has always been there telling me what to do and what to do to feel alive. Maybe it was time that I allow it to lead and guide me, don't try to block it out but just do whatever it tells me. That voice doesn't want me getting hurt I should definitely listen to it from now on if I want all this to stop and to be happy.

Don't you see that I care Scar? I am a friend. I'd never tell you anything that will get you hurt.

"Alright, fine" I said out loud "I'm listening just tell me what to do"

Turn off all the lights in the apartment.