The Coder

Chapter 22: Baby, It's Going to Be Okay

Mwahahaha I'm back from the dead bitches!!! Sorry I have been gone for so long. I needed a break because I have literally been writing every day for an entire month and my brain is fried.

I will try and upload every other week day. I can't write on the weekends anymore and I need to bring my motivation back up for writing. soooooo enjoy this chapter and I hope it isn't crappy! XOXO- Sparkle

Oh and Btw. Warning!!!!! There is very sensitive topics mentioned in this chapter. If you are easily triggered, please go ahead and skip to later in the chapter. I don't want any of you to feel uncomfortable or have panic attacks.

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Eddie's POV:

    My breathing was ragged and my vision blurry as I run into the forest. He can't find me here. He has terrible eyesight.

    I felt the muscles in my legs begin to burn as I continue to run. If he caught me, it wouldn't be pretty. I couldn't let him catch me!

    I feel the tears falling down my cheeks as I hear his heavy breathing and right behind me. His footsteps crunching behind me with every stick he steps on.

    "Get back here you whore!" I can smell the alcohol on his breath and can feel his gaze burning into my back.

     Why won't he just let me go!?

    I can feel myself slowing down. I can't stop now! I'm so close! His large hands grabs onto the back to torn up shirt and pulls me backwards. As I feel the air beneath me coming in short, my head lands against a hard object.

     "God Dammit! Hey fuckwad, he hit his head on a rock!" I feel both of their bodies hovering over me, making me feel tiny. Why would they do this? I thought that you were supposed to idolize your father and uncle. I thought they were supposed to love you.

    "Just grab him and lets go. I still have unfinished business."

    My body refuses to move as they pick up my tiny body and take me back to my hell. Every night it was like this. Every night they would take me into this dirty house and do things to me.

    That's when my momma left. I tried to tell her. When the bruises started appearing she questioned me, but when I told her why she just pushed me away. I know she loved me, but she didn't want to believe papa would do that.

    But when she found out the truth, she left. I... I can't trust anyone. I'm afraid they'll leave just like momma. I don't want to go through that again. It's enough I have to suffer through this.

     My eyes begin to open slowly once again. Did I pass out? I feel a cold chill run down my body and I look up to see what it was. I see my uncle standing beside the bed, unbuckling his belt.

     "No!"

     "Please, don't"

     "Please.."

    "Eddie, wake up! Baby please, It's going to be okay." My eyes snap open with my head spinning. What's going on? My head is pounding and my body is shaking.

    I stare up into the gorgeous brown eyes I love so much and shake harder. It was just a nightmare. I'm having those nightmares again. God help me.

    "Waylon?" I cringe at how shaky my voice sounded. At this point it was like I couldn't control my own body. I was so scared that I couldn't move.

    His eyes water up when he hears my voice and pulls me closer, rocking me back in forth.

    "It's alright Eddie. I'm right here. You're going to be alright." I look up into his eyes and feel the tears on my face. When had I started crying?

     I think of everything that happened in my dream and cringe. Of course it was about him. I just can't seem to get away from him, no matter what I do. And then I think of my mother. If maybe she had actually taken me with her, none of that would have happened.

     I wrap my arms around the tiny man's neck and pull him close. He sits there for a moment before holding me back. It was like he was afraid that I would break. I let out a shaky sigh that sounded more like a sob and nuzzle into his neck.

    "Don't leave me, please. Don't leave like mother did." I can feel my eyes pouring now and I let the sobs finally escape my lips. He was the only thing that was ever good in my life.

    He is all I have ever wanted and still want. I love him, and unlike others, he loves me back. I needed him here with me, just as much as he needed me.

    I can feel wet tears running down my hair as I sob into his shoulder.

    "I'm not going anywhere Ed-bear. I'm not going to leave you."

    I curl into his warm body as I process his reassuring words. I wasn't going to do this alone. He would be here with me, even when I'm like this. For so long I had felt alone, but as soon as I saw this man I knew that I wouldn't have to bear this pain alone.

     He might be crazy, but I guess so was I. Because even though this man had so many issues, we worked them out together. I loved him for all his corks, and he loves me as well.

     Maybe it will just take some time to get this one sorted out. I just need Waylon's help getting over this. He was the only one who could help me right now, and I was okay with that.

     I had gone to therapists, and none of them helped. They just sat there and mocked me. They told me what I did was wrong, but from my view I rid the world of two child molesters. I killed them because of what they did to a kid, not because they did it to me.

    I know that Waylon would understand if I told him. Hell, he probably already knows about it. I just... I need him here to help me through this. He could fix me, just like he did the sewing machine, or the camera.

    I may not be as simple as a camera, but I know he can mix me. After all, I was his hard drive.  

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Hey another author's note.

So I'm sorry this is so short, but I was unsure of how to continue this chapter. That and I want to drag out the chapters for as long as possible because I have been getting complaints about ending it so soon. SOOoOOOOoo here we are, baby Eddie has new nicknames from Waylon and Waylon is being protective and loving like always!

And If you guys want to comment some random questions, like a Q&A, and I'll answer them in the next chapter!!!