Take Me Back

Chapter 58

When I opened my eyes, it was all white. Wait, nasa langit na ba ako? I doubted, sa dami ng mga maling nagawa ko I think I deserve to be in hell.

"Kief, thank God you're awake. How are you son?" Tanong saakin ni Mom.

"Hi. I'm fine, I thought I'm already dead." I said to her.

My mom cries while looking at me, then, hinampas nya ako sa balikat.

"I hate you, son. You don't know how worry I am to you when Ella called na nawalan ka daw ng malay." She said while crying.

"I'm just joking, mom. I'm sorry if I worry you but I'm fine. Just trying to be." I said.

"Why you didn't tell me everything? Kung hindi ko pa pinilit sila Ella na sabihin sakin, hindi ko malalaman na nawawala si Ly and ginawa mong iwanan sya at kami para sa welfare ng family natin." Sabi nya.

"Dahil yun ang tingin kong tamang gawin mom. If I tell you ba, what will you do?" I asked.

"I sacrifice everything we have just to save Ly and you from so much pain." She honestly said.

"See, that's why I didn't tell you everything. Because I don't want all of you suffer, even Ly. But I think I was wrong, she suffered like me din pala." I said then nalungkot na naman ako nang maalala kong nawawala pa din si Ly.

"You've grown up so much. My little boy before becomes a matured enough gentleman." She said then cries again.

"But son, you know what more I am proud of?" She asked.

I raise one of my eyebrow to her then talked.

"What is it mom?" I asked.

"I am very proud of how you face that challenge on your own. Now I am confident enough to tell everyone that I raise a very good, responsible and a strong kid." She continued and sobs.

"Stop crying na, mom. I'm not yet dying, when I can go home? I hate here, I hate to be in hospitals." I said irritably.

"I hate you, I'll ask your doctor first just to make sure na okay ka na. But for now, just stay here muna." She said.

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Ilang araw na din simula nang makauwi ako from hospital. Although, kakagaling ko lang sa medication, hindi pa din ako tumitigil kakahanap kay Ly.

Masakit, pero kailangang tiisin eh. I need to face and live with my decisions. Paminsan minsan, I relay myself in alcohol dahil walang mapaglabasan eh.

"Ano, Den? Wala pa din?" Tanong ko dahil pumunta si Den dun sa lugar na sinasabi nung isang fan na nakita daw nila si Ly, pero negative pa din eh.

As well as Ella. Pumunta sya sa isa sa mga hotel sa Tagaytay dahil sabi nung isang fan nakita nya daw na nagcheck in si Ly dun pero wala din naman.

"Kiefer, tama na muna yan. Bukas na lang natin ulit ituloy. Magpahinga ka na, kakagaling mo lang sa hospital pinapagod mo na naman ang sarili mo." Sabi ni Ella.

"I don't have time to rest, Ells. Di rin naman ako makakapag-pahinga until makita ko na si Ly at makausap." Sagot ko at patuloy na nag-surf sa mga social media accounts ko.

"But atleast try to rest." Sabi nya.

"I'll try." Matipid kong sagot.

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It was 8 o'clock when I decided to drive myself anywhere. My first unexpected stop is in front of Gesu church in Ateneo. I came in and sit in front.

"God, please help me, help us find Alyssa. I'm longing for her love na po. I'm sorry if I became bad because of hurting her, forgive me please." I said talking to God.

"I know and I'm praying na sya po yung itinadhana nyo saakin. Mahal na mahal ko po sya na I'm willing to sacrifice everything. Even my life, God." Sagot ko and naiyak ako while releasing my prayers.

"Give me a sign God if it's still possible for us to find her." Sagot ko at nanatili pa ako ng ilang sandali before leaving Gesu and drive myself again.

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