should talk to him or not. I finally gave in.
Clarissa Marie Evenson:'Hey'
Josh Mathews: 'Hey?'
Clarissa Marie Evenson: 'What's up?'
Josh Mathews: 'Why are you even talking to me? Have you decided yet?'
Clarissa Marie Evenson: 'No, but I still want to talk to you'
Staring at the screen, my heart pounding for his reply. 'You're never because of Josh, this means you should be with HIM, not Jay V!'said the Josh in me. 'Oh shut it!'said Jay V in me.
Josh Mathews: 'Why do you want to talk to me? Are you choosing HIM?'
Was I? I want to talk to Josh, I want to hear his voice, and I want him to be next to me.
Clarissa Marie Evenson: ' brb' Logging off I sat there thinking. What if Jay V never kissed me? Will he still say he loves me? If he said he loves me when did he start? If we didn't kiss would I still
have to decide? Would Jay V still have confessed??? These question I needed to know. Closing my eyes, letting images of Jay V flow through my head I felt myself smiling. Opening my eyes I
saw my reflection from the mirror, my face was filled with happiness, and warmth. Looking down, I felt bad. Josh trust me for not hurting him, yet I am hurting him. I'm just like Rose. Taking a
deep breath and closing my eyes I let images of Josh run through. When he's smiling, when we went to eat ice cream, when someone took a picture of us at school(we were alone under a tree),
I felt myself smile and my eyes watering.The expression Josh gave me, when I accused him of getting to Rose through me, his expression when I had thought he was worse than Jay V with girls,
he's expression appalled that I thought he wanted sex. All because of Jay V, my world was like this. I didn't want to give up Josh, but I didn't want to give up Jay V either. Walking out and down
the stairs I stopped at the piano I've neglected for months. Opening the cover, I ran my fingers along the keys testing the pitch. Still perfect. Closing my eyes I begun to play a song I wrote
Journey:
It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you
Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you
There was only one face I saw while singing this song in my normal voice. After much thought, I finally made my choice. Even though it was fast simple, and I hoped I was making the right
choice. I walked out of my room and headed towards Jay V's house.
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Heyy! I FINALLY UPLOADED!! :D
Ok u guys mad???
:P
too baaadddd :P
I love this song and I think it fits this story ;)
Ok b4 u go all crazy from the singer, she is from Taiwan and most of her songs r in Mandarin. Only a few songs r in English! :)
This is one of my favs! :D
I LOVE Angela!!!
Name: Angela Zhang
:)
I'll be posting whenever again, but dont wrry u wont wait long ! :D
bye 4 now!
PEACE
LOVE
TWILIGHT
~Tiffany
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