give me love - luke brooks ★

chapter forty-five

"Hey," he said sheepishly.

"Hi.." I said quietly, putting down my nutella and focusing on my laptop.

"Can we talk?" He asked with good intentions. He was rubbing his forehead, so I decided to reply sarcastically.

"We are, aren't we?" I didn't take my eyes off of my laptop screen.

He sighed. "Abbie please? I just want to make things better, you know that."

I shut my laptop screen and turned around to face him, my back resting on the arm of the sofa. "You had the chance to make things better days ago, before you left us." I said calmly, holding back the urge to scream at him.

"I know Abbie, but I felt low, so low, and all I wanted to do was get away, have a break. I was fed up of breaking everything I touched, I just needed alone time."

"What, alone time with beer and drugs?" I rolled my eyes.

I saw his face drop, and I realised I'd upset him by accusing him he'd started to do drugs again. "I can't believe you'd think I'd start doing them again, after everything."

"You can't blame me," I shrugged.

"Do you want to know the truth?" He asked. I nodded. "Well then, hear this. I wanted so bad to do drugs again, I was willing to do anything to make myself forget what a dick I've been, but you know what? I didn't. Because I love you Abbie. I don't care how you feel towards me, no matter how much you hate me, but I refused to do it because I knew that would ruin any chance of hope I had of getting any form of friendship re-built with you, even after I left with no explanation. I couldn't do that to you."

I was looking him in the eye whilst he said this, and he most definitely wasn't lying. I could tell by his eyes, and he was looking directly into mine. I sighed, thinking only about what happened between me and Jai, making me feel really guilty. So I should have felt though. I deserved it. He doesn't deserve to be lied to and treated badly, not now.

"Look Abbie, I'm not saying we have to rush into anything, but I don't want to loose you. You were my best friend, my everything, my other half, and I know I was the biggest idiot ever for hurting you, but I promise I will never do anything, ever like this to hurt you. I will protect you from everyone who ever tries to hurt you, no matter what it takes. I just don't want you to go to London, not now. I'm begging you. I need you here with me and I know however much you try to deny it, you won't last without me either."

I thought about it, and realised that this was the only chance I was going to get to tell him what happened. "Luke, I have something I've got to tell you." I sighed. His eyes went wide and then he looked as if he was gonna cry.

"No.. you didn't. I'm so sorry Abbie. I'm so sorry.." He said looking at his lap in shame. Right, now I was even more confused.

"What?"

"You didn't.. start to.. you know again, did you?" he whispered.

"What?" I said in shock. "I haven't hurt myself. I promise you." I pulled up the sleeves of my jumper, and showed him my stomach just to prove it.

"Phew. Ohmygod I nearly just had a heart attack. I got so scared." He laughed quietly to himself. "What is it then?"

"I, I'm sorry for ever saying horrible stuff about you, I am. I'm such a hypocritical bitch, I know. Just please don't go mental.. Me, well me and Jai.. We kissed. I'm sorry." I didn't know why I felt so bad admitting this to him, because at the time we weren't together and we still aren't now.

"Okay." He said.

"What?"

"I said, it's okay. I don't mind." I let out a breath and felt like a huge weight had been liften off my shoulders.

"Cool. Okay. Well I'm sorry.. again."

"Don't be." He shrugged.

"Aren't you angry?"

"No. Not really. Jealous, yes, but not angry."

"How come?"

"You haven't done anything really in comparison to what I've done to you." I just shrugged and let it roll over me, not wanting to spark an argument.

It felt weird to be back to normal with him, well semi-normal anyway. I'd missed his beautiful features, his brown hair, his lip ring, his cute smile, his laugh. I was never going to let him go, ever again.. all thoughts of going back to England permanently erased from my mind completely.

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and I'm sorry I haven't updated in a week or so but I had a social life last weekend for once.. and then it was my birthday and I went out for a meal last night and was doing homework all day today and yaaaaa

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