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Memories Back Then ~ Part 3 {Jaebum FF}

"Can we please talk?" he asks looking at you bringing familiar butterflies you once felt in the past.. You missed the way he used to look at you. The way he made you feel so special like you were the only one he loved and cared about.

But clearly you weren't his one and only...

"We have nothing to talk about," you answered coldly and he continued to look at you. "Yes we do, please just hear me out and then if you want me out of your life for good, your wish is my command," he says and you sighed.

You might as well just hear what he has to say. He would probably force you to listen to him anyways. But what is he going to possibly say "It was mistake, blah blah blah?"

"Fine," you mumbled annoyed and he grabbed your hand and pulled you to a deck that was near the river and stood in front of you.

"Look, I don't know how to start this... But I can't keep quiet anymore. Fuck I miss you. I fucked up so bad in past, and you know what I have no excuse for that. I don't even know why I even cheated on you in the first place. I was stupid not being able to see that I had someone so great in my life. I fucked up so bad and after that day you haven't been able to leave my mind. I tried to find ways to talk to you but you showed me that you didn't want anything to do with me. I even got to the point where I was over my omma's house in tears and you know I am not the type to cry very easily. But my omma told me to let you go. You deserved to be happy and clearly I couldn't seem to make you happy. Instead I caused you pain. So for the past two years we had our space and you still kept appearing in my mind. Then tonight when I seen you, I felt like this was a message that we are meant to be. I mean I can be wrong but I miss you so much and I can't lie, I've tried giving other girls chances but none of them were anything compared to you." he says and you could see his eyes getting watery.

"Jaebum...." you were about to talk but he cuts you off.

"You meant so much to me and you still do. I want you to forgive me. I want to be able to start all over and have you in my life. But I think I'm a little too late for that... I looked at you at the bowling alley with your date and you seemed perfectly fine, like nothing happened between us. Like what we had was nothing to you..." he says and a tear streams down his face.

You felt so bad but he has no idea how much pain he caused you. Here he was thinking you moved on perfectly fine but that wasn't the case. It took you two years to move on! No you haven't even moved on, here you are watching the guy you love right in front of you cry because of his mistake. You wanted to forgive him so bad but how are you sure that he won't do the same mistake all over again? Where you really willing to feel that same pain you felt when you first caught Jaebum cheating on you? Did Jaebum mean that much to you where you would throw away your pride just to be with him?

"You think moving on was easy? Are you kidding me? The day I walked in on you cheating on me, broke me completely. It made me question everything! I wanted to just run and run far away from you. I never been in so much pain in my entire life. I felt like I wasn't good enough for you since you clearly had to go cheat on me. I'm sorry I'm not the prettiest girl in your eyes and I am sorry I'm not the smartest and I'm sorry that I wasn't enough to satisfy you. I'm sorry I made you want to cheat but I have feelings. It took me two fucking years... Two years to get myself together. For two years I was here thinking about you crying myself to fucking sleep. It was hard enough to tell my family that we were done because they fucking liked you. Your name seemed to be mentioned so much to the point where it was hard to even forget about you. Then finding out you were in a group was the hardest, especially when I seen you all over my tv and heard your music all over the radios. Yes it may look like I'm fine but it's called putting a fake smile. I smile even though you caused so much pain in my life. And I blame you, it didn't have to end this way for us but I wasn't enough." you practically shouted and you looked down having tears run down your face.