Don't Judge a Book by...the Nerd! Letters to Letters

Don't Judge a Book by...the Nerd!!! Letters to Letters 33

So, basically the girls on the team was practicing while, we just run our asses off. And again, over a guy that problemy doesn't have any feelings for me or her. I felt like crap while running and trying to caught my breath. I should feel like crap for what I did to Jer... I'm positive that he's upset with me and everything. I couldn't help but to stop and bend over to catch my breath. I can feel the tears coming to my sight. I sighed and took deep breaths as much as I can. I stood up correctly and continued running. I just noticed that Dexter was here with Kevin. I wiped the tears when I passed them while, running. I can't let this get to my head. I mean who in the hell would like me? A nerd who wants to break her lonely shell.

~After Practice~

I listened what the coach has to say then, when he was finished I hurried up and grabbed my things and I speed walked it to my car. I wasn't in the mood for anything at all. I don't wait for my brother or Dexter to see me...not even Amy. I just wanted to get my mind off of guys just for a bit. Soon, as I opened my car door. I was throwing my things in the passenger seat and I got in. I found my keys and turned on my car then I was gone.

I was just driving around not going to Jeremy's house yet. I just wanted time to think and everything. I just drove to the bet up park that my brother and I went to go when we were little kids. I just parked my car and turned off the engine and I rest my head on the steering wheel. I wan't in the mood for anything. I felt like I really betrayed my crush in every kind of ways just by going to the party. I sighed and said while turning up this lame love song on listening to Set Me Free

"Take me away."

I was thinking...What to do about Erin? I mean...I can't just dutch a guy who was kissing me and everything. My very first kiss was with him. I groaned in annoyance and leaned back in my car seat. I let out a long sigh and was singing this lame sing because I wish I was set free of this pressure and the guy trouble. After the song was over...I just sat there after turning to radio off and just sitting in silence. I just keep thinking about Jeremy and me kissing Erin. I mean he wasn't bad for the first but, I want Jeremy to take my lips first. I said while staring at my ceiling

"This stupid crush and crap."

I was seating there and staring at the ceiling for at least 15 minutes trying to think what to do and everything. But, soon, I broke the stare and looked at my steering wheel and Just turned the keys to the car and just driving away. I just can't seat here thinking...I have to take action.

So, I just ended up driving by to my tempery home and I knocked on the door first then entered. I said loudly

"I'm home."

With that, I walked in with the living room to see...Jeremy on the couch watching Full Metal Alchemist with his shirt off. I barely noticed that I'm still in my sports bra and short shorts. I blushed a bit and I said to Jeremy

"Are you okay? You don't came to school today."

He didn't say anything to me and I sat down to him and I said softly with a frown tugged to my lips

"Jeremy, I'm sorry for everything I did."

He didn't say anything...He got up and turned off the television then walked away upstairs I frowned even more. I sat there in the couch thinking how bad of a friend I am to him? I still never got that out of my mind...that I can't get rid of the fact that I have betrayed him and deep down that I truly regret it. I got up off the couch and went upstairs...knocking on his door. No answer! I just said 

"Jeremy, I know your in there so I'm coming in!" 

I tried to open the door just to find it locked. I groaned and said loudly