❝ i need you to show me the light ❞
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"you made me insecure, told me i wasn't good enough. but who are you to judge, when you're a diamond in the rough?" selena sings to her fans who sang along, making selena's heart beat faster at the interaction. little did they know – when she was singing proudly of her fans, a huge lovely smile on her face – that she was dying on the inside. not literally, metaphorically. the smile on her face was almost forced. she saw how everybody was singing along with every word, enthusiastic, happy in the moment, she couldn't help but put on a smile. though, she wasn't happy, nor enthusiastic.
"who says, who says you're not perfect?" selena sings into the chorus, the crowd getting louder as they became confident.
her voice was flowing with everybody's, and she liked every moment of it. until she had been reminded of what she felt within. when selena got off the stage, the crowds roaring, screaming in appreciation for the great performance, she gave the mic away, a tear sliding down her cheek. everybody thought they was happy tears – she did herself in the beginning, but soon realised that they weren't; they was tears of jealousy, if possible.
she was envying every single person out there – though they was doing the same to her – wishing she could feel some of their feelings, of their happiness. she had forgotten what it felt – being genuinely happy, not forcing anything.
now that she was outside of the arena where she played willingly for a charity, the cameras and screams of fans – few shouts of paparazzi's – roared louder, as she had gotten into her car, where the driver then drove their way to her home. knowing selena shouldn't, she opened up twitter, going through her notifications. a mention from somebody she knew was popular was shown, them themselves tagging her.
@justinbieber:
@selenagomez 's album is dope. #stillobsessed
slamming her palm to her forehead, heaving a sigh – a distressed sigh. she didn't want this, to be mentioned by the worlds best known singer. she didn't want attention at all, even though she was famous. she wanted to be in her own bubble, her and her fans – that's all.
selena knew what was to come to this tweet. she couldn't hate him, because he wouldn't of known the consequences to this tweet which would cause commotion. the label selena is signed with would want her single to be released even more closer to the current date, due to the attention selena would soon be getting with this single tweet.
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a/n
next chapter will be up tomorrow since this one is short, sorry for the delays ♡
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Despair
Fanfiction[completed] she's famous, talented and beautiful - that's what the media and fans sees. truly: she was broken. [ could trigger some people, so read at your own risk. please know that suicide isn't going to help you, it'll cause more pain, but inst...
