It felt warm.
I wanted to stay like this for as long as I could and I didn't care that it was the first time that I had ever met taehyung, this feeling was just different.
All I ever wanted was to be held by someone while I cried and it was finally happening. I expected that it would sooth me but it didn't. It was like a catalyst for my mind and all the bad thoughts were suddenly amplifying. It felt like I was going to explode.
My heart was beating fast, my breathing was erratic and my grip on taehyungs shirt was getting tight. I never experienced this before because whenever I would cry, I would forcibly stop myself midway because I hated being weak and I knew that my tears didn't matter.
As if he had heard my thoughts, taehyung hugged me tighter.
It took me a while but I finally forced myself to stop before the semi-mental breakdown turned into something more. It felt kind of satisfying to cry this much and I knew that I would feel better if I just let everything out, but it was just too much right now.
"You know you really shouldn't sit so carelessly on the edge of a 25 story building" he warned pulling me backwards and taking a seat next to me.
"At times like this I don't really mind falling" I said as I looked down, it was scary but I truly didn't mind dying sometimes.
"Don't talk like that" He said looking ahead, his voice sounding hurt.
I wanted to talk to him about it but we fell into a comfortable silence that was soon followed by taehyung resting his arm around me and me resting my head on his shoulder and I wasn't keen on interrupting that.
"Don't you ever think about it?" I asked not being able to hold in my curiosity anymore.
"What? Suicide?"
I nodded in response so he would continue.
"Of course I do, I mean it's only normal to think like that when you're in my situation" he said as he looked at his hands.
"There were times where I almost gave up and couldn't pull through. Times where I attempted suicide but didn't succeed"
"I'm glad I didn't though" he continued, staring at the city lights.
"Why?" I asked, realizing how offensive that question was.
He sighed as he turned his head to face me. How were his eyes glowing like that?
"Because I got to meet you"
In movies, books and even real life situations the girl would smile and blush, which is what most normal girls would do, but I didn't, what I did was thank him as I let a few tears stream down my face.
"Why are you thanking me?" He muses.
"B-Because this is the first time I felt like someone actually c-cared about me" I didn't mean to stutter but I was just so nervous and touched. It was an extremely awkward mix of emotions and I didn't know how to act.
He smiled at my response and gave me a quick peck on the cheek.
"Chicks are way too easy now a days"
"Asshole"
"C'mon let's go" he chuckled helping me to my feet.
"You still haven't shown me around seoul yet"
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After we were done visiting the most popular locations in seoul, we felt exhausted. So naturally, we decided to end our day with ice cream.
