Dear Diary || Kim Jongdae

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10/8/16

Dear diary,

I just had to check back here to see if he was messing with me or not. But god damn it, he was right and I can't fucking believe that I argued with him with this. Today's the day when I had met Kim Jongdae for the first time. And I told him that it was last week a year ago was when we first met. But no he insisted that it was today and that's why we should go out tonight.

Today wasn't even the anniversary for when we became a couple.

You know what he told me? That today was just as important, because this was the day he was sure he met the love of his life for the first time.

That boy... Is going to kill me one day.

But, damn, I actually didn't write in here for a long time. I decided not to bring my diary with me during the summer. Because, I'm sure, I would be reading every page with every sweet memory and miss Jongdae too much. I'm positive that I would have been way too distracted if I brought my diary with me... Well more distracted than usual.

But everything turned out amazingly with the internship. I've learned so much and made so much wonderful (and even excruciating) experiences that will help me in the future. The hospital I was an intern at, a very well-known chain from Japan, was top tier. And it was actually with Kyungsoo and his "friend" that helped me get this opportunity.

Oh, and friend? A lovely girl named Sayuri, who I'm sure has a humongous crush on Kyungsoo. She was cute and kind and it made me so happy on how close we've gotten over the summer. I'm definitely going to help get those two together or so help me god!

God damn Kyungsoo and his damn obliviousness.

Anyway, semester have been going great so far. I have the pleasure of reuniting with Junmyeon again with three of my psychology classes and even Yixing, who shared two of those same classes with us. We've been very close knit this for our classes, and it was so nice to hear that the three of us might go to the same medical school I wanted to go to after graduation. So, the three of us promised to stick together until the very end.

With Jongin, he's been put in even more music videos since his first one, along with Taemin. Those two now gotten a chance to be back up dancers to IU's national tour. Isn't that insane?? Jongin better come back with a signed album from her for me. I miss him a lot, but I shouldn't dwell too much on it because he's living his dream.

And there's my boyfriend. My amazing boyfriend who had found his calling during the summer. He figured that if he's not going to be his own performer, that he might as well be a lyricist/composer instead. Writing had always been a strong point for him and I thought it was perfect. So, he's been working hard to get to where he wants to.

And I will support him 100%.

I think this will be my last page for a while. I love how everything is going so far but it really is time consuming. Besides, I should've started getting ready thirty minutes ago for our "first anniversary" date. So, it was nice writing here while it lasted.

But note for my future self, it's okay to dream big and make a goal for yourself but also expect the unexpected. Because never had I thought that my sophomore would be so hectic and dramatic and so... Not regrettable. It's okay to cry, to scream, to do anything to let out your feelings. You're allowed to, you're allowed to share those feelings too.

Because, life isn't always about precision and perfection. Life will throw you curveballs and it'll either make it better or worse. So prepare.

Work hard.

Dream bigger.

Sometimes just let things happen.

And love as much as you can.

Never forget those friendships and all the people you met in your life, because just look at the impact they made on you.

Mostly Kim Jongdae.

Just remember the small chance you two had that day when you first met. If class didn't have group discussion, if he didn't turn around in his seat and talk to your first, you wouldn't have met the most amazing guy and fallen in love.

God, we're so lucky, aren't we?