Dear Diary || Kim Jongdae

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1/26/16

Dear diary,

Things began getting awkward.

Jongdae kept asking me this morning what was wrong. I could see he was concerned, and I knew I was getting him even more concerned by saying that I was fine, that I was just tired from my fever and the late night of doing homework.

Then came Jongin, who called me right after my messages to Jongdae. He asked what exactly Seulgi had told me...

It felt weird. Because, he knows, he just wanted me to say it.

But I couldn't bring myself to do so.

So I lied. I told him that she didn't say anything major.

I didn't like it. I didn't like how I was suddenly lying to Jongin. But I wanted to ignore what Seulgi told me and not have things awkward between us. But after I hung up after telling him that nothing happened, it ended up that way.

Why the fuck was this happening?

I want to date Jongdae.

I want to get through college in peace.

I want my college experience to be as drama free as possible. I've always avoided it but what can I do now? Can't I at least have one of those things? Why is there already so much going on before I even officially dated the guy?

It's not any better that I have an exam already in my psych class tomorrow.