I am j e s s i e.
And the mirror does not agree with me today.
Not that it does any day, but today happens to be worse than usual.
The locker room is never a great place, but its definitely at its worst when I feel not-so-s k i n n y.
I'm not fat, I know that.
But sometimes I feel just a bit c h u b b y.
I know I'm not of course; that would be an i n s e c u r i t y and I don't have those.
I just sometimes feel a like I'm a bit larger than I should be.
"Oh stop it."
I turn to a n d r e a, who is looking at me with a tight lipped smile.
"Why are you squeezing your stomach like that? There isn't anything there," she says, as she starts to braid her brown hair.
Like she's one to talk, I see her do it all the time; trying to gather up fat that doesn't exist.
She denies it every time.
But she does it.
Just like I do.
She has no reason to, and I catch her more than she realizes. It frustrates me; I could drop a few pounds, but if she were to, she would be underweight. She probably already is.
Better underweight than c h u b b y like me.
As she does her hair, I notice a bandage on her wrist.
I gesture to it, desperate to change the subject.
"You alright?"
I think I see her eyes widen for a moment in her reflection, but the bright laughter I hear the next second tells me it must have been a trick of the light.
"I'm so c l u m s y," she giggles. "I was putting away the dishes, and I accidentally broke a plate, and when I was cleaning it up I cut myself. But don't tell my mom, I'm kinda hoping she doesn't notice."
"Your secrets safe with me," I smile.
But I have bigger things to focus on besides a n d r e a ' s c l u m s i n e s s.
My stomach being the biggest.
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Short StoryIn which the conditions themselves decide to speak. And those they inflict attempt a response. #freeyourbody #ThePeopleOfSociety A featured story for @themaddieproject #58 in short story (amazing cover by @soundthealarm)