I am a n d r e a.
And I am fat.
I've come to terms with it, its just a part of who I am, whether I like it or not. Of course, I've been trying to fix it, as most do when they have certain problems.
After all, I wasn't always fat.
I remember a time when I was the fittest girl around, but slowly r y a n showed me what I really am.
F. A. T.
He reminds me everyday, the same four things with only slight variation:
You are stupid.
You are ugly.
You are useless.
You are fat.
In the beginning, I thought he was lying, just being a b u l l y, but then I realized that he's one of the only people telling me the truth.
I am stupid.
I am ugly.
I am useless.
I am fat.
Its something I've been trying to fix, as hard as I can, and I can't bear when people lie about it.
Even my best friend, j e s s i e, doesn't have the guts to tell me.
She lies about it all the time.
So when we're on the bus, and I tell her the truth, about how she's beautiful, definitely the s k i n n i e s t girl I know, all I get back are lies.
"Oh my god a n d r e a! What are you even saying?! You're so much thinner and prettier than me! Your a gorgeous stick for goodness sake!"
I just sigh, tired of her untruthfulness.
And when I finally make it home I go straight to the snack cabinet, completely unaware of what I'm doing.
I just know it comforts me.
And before I know it there's an empty family size bag of chips in front of me.
I am stupid.
I am ugly.
I am useless.
I am fat.
Very fat.
And I feel like a pig. A disgusting, bloated, fat pig.
So I run, as fast as I can with a body as large as mine, into my bathroom, straight to the toilet.
I need it out. I need it out. I need it out. I need it out. I need it out.
I NEED IT OUT.
And what better to help me with that than my trusty toothbrush.
Just a few pokes in the right place, a couple of moments later, and voila!
A family size bag of chips.
I feel much better now.
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Short StoryIn which the conditions themselves decide to speak. And those they inflict attempt a response. #freeyourbody #ThePeopleOfSociety A featured story for @themaddieproject #58 in short story (amazing cover by @soundthealarm)