Chapter 23 ~~Letting Go Again~~

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With all the things that is happening nag se-second thoughts ako about breaking up with Lean again. It's been a month since naging kame ulit pero ang gulo gulo ng ulo ko. Hindi ko alam ang tama sa mali. Halos hindi na din ako umaalis ng kwarto ko and nakatalakbong lang ako sa kumot ko. Nai message ko sya para mag usap kame. Alam kong mali ginagawa ko pero sana paunawain nya ito dahil hirap na hirap na talaga ako.

MK:We need to talk

LY:Oh

MK:I think we shouldn't go out anymore

LY:Wait what?!?

MK:Let's break up

LY:But why we were getting alone fine

MK:My uncle died, rumors about you being fake, criticism about me rejecting Kurt

LY:Are you seriously kidding me

MK:No I am not because no matter how much I explain that you are real I still look like someone stupid and it hurts being judged

LY:I see people's opinions are more important about me to you.... Well gee i thought this was going good

MK:It's not that their opinions are more it's just I don't want to have the pain again and be depress



LY:So you think breaking up with me is your solution...





MK:How am i going to prove to them specially you are all the way there and just because of that do you think you would fly here for that





LY:You know you make me sound like a second choice right after society





MK:Please understand the pain I went through because its' coming back. Specially with tito being gone





LY:But how come to you this is the only solution huh





MK: If I had another choice I wouldn't do this but right now I don't have one





LY:I guess I'm not important to you

MK:Please I am begging you

LY:You know I feel stupid right now because I was happy that we were back

MK:I'm sorry i know this is my fault but please

LY:I don't know anymore okay.... If what people judge you is what's more important then I guess fine its' over because I don't want to be second choice

MK:I'm so sorry please I can't take anymore pain because I felt like killing myself because I can't do it anymore

LY:The thing about you is that you care too much for other people that you even look down on yourself and you don't even realize them

MK:That's why I'm tired of being myself because everyone around me before had took advantage of me

LY:It's because you trust them too much

MK:So please let me go

LY:Fine but just take care of yourself

MK:Please don't hate me for doing this

LY:I won't hate you I'm just disappointed that I'm a second choice

MK:You weren't second choice I just had no other solution

LY:I'll try to understand you but for now in going to cool off I'm going

MK:Oh okay

LY:I'll just go cool off for now so yeah but no hard feelings



Nag log-out na sya. Alam na alam ko na galit sya sakin and hindi lang nya ito sinabe dahil alam nya lalo akong mahihirapan. Hindi ko ito ginusto pero sana maintindihan nya ako. Ngayon alam na alam ko na mali itong decision ko pero sana meron din itong idulot sakin. This is my second mistake.

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