I lost it. I lost it all.
My eyes stung.
Tears streamed.
"All I wanted was to be thin."
"We know."Thinner. Thinner. Skinnier.
"It's never enough."
"We know."
"I can't stop."
"We know." They whispered.Maybe I should just disappear.
Then it would stop.
The darkness would leave.
This constant obsession would disappear together with me."I don't know how much longer I can take this."
After a while, my eyes felt dry.
My expression was plain.
I felt nothing.
I thought of nothing.
My mind was blank.I walked into the house.
Up the stairs.
I always wondered where Rose committed suicide. No one told me.
But now I've found her sanctuary.
Her home.
My home.I walked into what seemed to have been a bedroom.
A diary was placed on the desk. Next to it a pen.
This was Rose's note.
Now it will be mine.Dear Ana, Mia and Rose,
I didn't understand at first.
But now all I want is to be thin.
You've dedicated yourself so much.
Gaining weight has me haunted.
Every time, I want to hurt myself.
I just wanted to be thin, because that would be pretty.
I was always scared of the consequences, but it was no match for the desire to have my ribs showing and my hip bones sticking out.
I have no regrets in my life.
I just wish I could have had someone like Rose as my sister, just like Ana and Mia.Aspiring to be like you, I've completely destroyed myself and now I don't know who I am and my life has no point left to its meaning.
My handwriting was shaky.
I was terrified.Logan's PoV
Amy won't pick up her phone.
I was running around.
I already went to her house and her parents said she ran out.
I've got a bad feeling.
Where would she go?
A place, some place where she'd go to be alone. Has she told me about something like that?
SHIT Amy. Where are you?
You better not do anything stupid.Shit if I hadn't written that stupid note.
Damn it.
Why won't she just get fucking better??
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
Dear Ana,
Fiksi Remaja"I fell into darkness but I didn't mind, I liked it." Amy Adams thought everything was alright, but when she heard her very best friend Rose committed suicide, her world turned upside down. Amy couldn't understand, why? But Amy found Rose's diary at...