Ok. Im not gonna lie. Your support on my last chapter has been amazing. You guys have teally helped me remain firm and strong when i just wanted it all to end. But...
Im mad. Im mad as hell. Not at you guys. But my fucking life. So.. I figured i would talk to you guys because im literally infuriated.
So. As if life hadnt already dealt me a shitty hand. Straight from the start, i have to also lose my entire future. Or at best, rearrange it.
See... I get what its like to not be wanted ok? I spent years in foster care with my brother. So... I get it. But i get a fucking second dose because of something i cant control, and shouldn't even fucking matter, i dont have a fucking mom ok? Ok.
So. If thats not enough i get to hide all the pain because i have people who look up to me. And i love them. But. I can never take a minute to say this fucking sucks. And when i do. Omg you guys are amazing. But it gives me strength to do what she fucking said to do. Stay away. She wont fucking leave me alone. Wtf man.
So... I get this... And then... The weekend im supposed to get drivers license, start my new job, i get the news.
Ive been having the worst headaches latley. And no one ever said it would hurt but God if fucking does. The pain is impossible to explain. And now i know why.
Im going blind.
Great.
Name a fucking dot i guess
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Also keep in mind im not mad at you guys im venting to you guys. I just dont know what else to do.
-Sam
