Don't Judge a Book by...the Nerd! Letters to Letters

Don't Judge a Book by...the Nerd!!! Letters to Letters 31

"I'll try."

So, we continued the bra hunt and brought some. After, that store...We went to the food court with the guys. They grabbed a big table and I was sitting between Arnold and Erin. I would just sigh and eat a fry...They were just having a chit chats at the table I was zoning out big time. Just about random things coming to my head. Like for example the guys back at Jeremy's house...We're they acting just to make me happy because, of how broken down I was. Or about Derek... Did he just told Claire to invent me or he's not going? The more deep in thought I am...the more I think of anything can happen to me. I was so deep in thought that I didn't see a fry hitting me in the face...Ii hit me right on the head...I said

"Okay, who threw the fry?"

Amy frowned and said while leaning back in her sit

"Why were you zoning out?"

I said with a small smile

"Just thinking is all...about...stuff."

She shook her head and said

"Do you want to talk about it?"

I shook my head and said while, eating a fry

"Just a math problem."

She threw another fry at me and said

"We are not in a math class...We're in the mall to have fun and shop, Gwenni."

I sighed and said while throwing the fry at her

"Sorry, it's just something hard that I can't figure out."

She shook her head and said with a silly smile

"Your so weird."

Sammie said while crossing her arms and leaning back in her seat, glaring at me. I'm still wondering way she's tugging along with us.

"You can say that again."

Amy glared at her and was about to say something until, Asia said with a proud smile

"Who is going to get drunk at the party?"

Just Abraham, Asia and me raised our hands. Amy gasped and said with a smile

"Oh, Gwen your not going to be drinking."

I smirked and said while leaning back in my seat

"Do you want to bet? After the bull-crap that I had to put up with of course, I'm going to get drunk."

Erin said with a smirk

"Wow a different side of you, we'll probably wouldn't see."

I nodded my head and said

"Yeah...so, whose going with a date?"

Pretty much everyone raised their hand but, me...Arnold said with a small frown

"Why aren't you taking a date to the party?"

I said with a smile

"I like being a loner and not tied down to one person."

He nodded his head in understanding...so, everyone continued on with their conversations with their friends. I was quietly thinking to myself again but, what I said to Kevin this morning about me trying to get a job so we can have an apartment. I really can't keeping relaying on Jeremy and Dexter then, the other guys who wants to get into my life that is supposedly so, wrong for me to be around...I groaned and took a big bite out of my hamburger that Johnny brought me. I feel like sleeping or something...I feel stressed out again. Amy threw a fry at me this time I was right now it and it landed right in my mouth. She stuck out her tongue then, said

"What is up that big brain of yours?"

I sighed and said while looking at her with a frown

"I think your going to hate me for saying this.."

I got up and handled onto my bags and away from the table then, said softly hoping she don't hear me

"Amy, I need to get a job...again!"

Amy was happy for a second then the moment I said a job. She was freakin pissed off...one thing about Amy is she gets pissed real easily when, things doesn't go her way and she will tell you whats on her mind or beat you. She stood up from her sit and said seriously angry

"You don't need a damn job, Gwen!"

I said with a frown

"I'm in an position...That I need one."

She got up and was walking towards me...I started back up before, I know it...I was running around the mall with her behind me closely.

Until, the guys finally got her. She was really fighting them off...we were outside in the parking lot. Asia, Skyler and Sammie left...leaving me with Amy and the guys. Amy was yelling at me, angry at me...

"Gwen, you don't need a job. Can you just please act like a teenager? Not a damn workaholic. What is damn important that you have to do or get for you to get a damn job?"

I said ready to cry tears

"I just have to get a job okay. I can't just keep relaying on my friends to help me all the time...I have to fix things on my own. I can't tell you most the the bullshit that happened to me because, I'm deeply ashamed of it, Amy."

I blinked the tears from my eyes and said while looking at her...she looks like she's about to calm down

"I feel so trapped and freaking hopeless in the last couple if days. I can't tell anyone because, I'm a quiet person...you know how my parents are...I can't tell anyone my pain or how I feel because, of them screwing up their unwanted daughter for years. And look at how I ended in up in high school. You know what I'm there...the underdog or loser. Hell, even nerd! I'm going thru a rough time in my dumb ass life..."

I wiped my tears and said with a serious look to my face

"So, if I need a damn job...I'm going one."

The guys was still holding onto Amy and she said with a serious look to her face

"Gwen, what are you hiding from me?"

I sighed and said while, crossing my arms and looked at her

"I can't tell you...It would be to much pressure on you."

She rolled her eyes and said with a silly smile

"Okay...I understand but, you have to tell me sometime. And are we going to get back at Amber? I know you have a plan in your head."

I let out a long sigh and said with a silly smile

"Maybe, I have a plan."

The guys let go of her and we just hugged each other. Amy said

"Your to dumb sometimes but, I guess I'll just act like nothing happened okay."

I said with a small smile

"Thank you, Amy."

We pulled away and Arnold said with a smile

"Well, see how things are okay...Were leaving...See ya at the party, Gwen and Amy."

I looked at them confused and said

'You guys are going..."

Amy just rolled her eyes and said while, pushing me to the car

"You have been thinking to much to tell what's happening."

I was about to give her an excuse but, she slammed my door shut. I groaned and waved to the guys good bye while, Amy got in on her side of the car and took off not before honking the horn. Amy was talking the whole way back to her house. I was in and out listening to her tell me how excite she is to go to this party of Clarie's. I was thinking why the hell am I going to this party? I just sighed and looking at the road.

COMMENT...VOTE...FAN!!! Again, thank you for being very patience with me. ^_^"