Forever and Always

Chapter twenty

A small tear rolled down my cheek. It was stupid to be thinking about what gender I wanted the baby to be. There were so many unknowns in life, and sadly one is if I'm keeping the child...

Standing know, in front of my friends, with the father of my child standing at my side. The thought of adoption caused tears to trickle down my face, and my breath to hitch in my throat. It's time, they all deserve to know...

***Luke's POV***

After Michael asked his question our group fell silent. Probably because we were thinking the same thought. What do we want the babies gender to be?

Personally, I really don't know which I want the most... I mean in the perfect world I'd want one of both.

Either way the kid is going to be a heartbreaker, with Nikki's looks and my height. I mean come on.

If it were a boy, I'd teach him how to play the guitar, and I'm sure the other lads would be trying to teach him their instruments. He'd have the soccer playing skills of David Beckham - since Cal would most likely force the kid to play. But my boy wouldn't just be a sports and musical genius, he'd have book smarts too. When he became a teenager I'd teach him all there was to know about girls - and I mean everything - but I'd make sure he also knew how to treat a women... Because that was a skill I still have yet to learn.

But if we had a little girl... God would she be spoiled. She'd be daddy's little princess. I can see her being a dancer, or maybe a gymnast. Every boy would want her, but believe me I wouldn't let any near her, she'd be locked up till she was at least 30... I just never would want her to get hurt, not the way I've hurt women. So I guess she wouldn't be able to date anyone that reminded me of myself.

"Guys I have to tell you something." Nikki mumbled, and as I looked over at her I noticed how she had small tears running down her face and how her body was tense, "I've been, um... seriously thinking of adoption."

Nikki played with her hands awkwardly. And boy if I thought it was silent before, I was way off. The only sound that I could register in my brain was all the stage crew bustling around, around us.

"Why?" Someone said, and only when all eyes landed on me was I able to realize that the question had come from my lips... and that I was crying as well.

"I just can't do it. I can't be a mother now. I have a job that doesn't pay a lot, definitely not enough to support a baby and me. And plus my parents disowned me, so does that really give me any choice? You need support to raise a baby, you need security, and sadly that's another thing I cannot supply." her voice hiccuped a bit as she cried, "So about a week and a half ago, I started the process of putting the baby up for adoption, which doesn't mean that I'm for sure going through with this... But you know, it gives me more security, that if I do chose to go through with this. It wouldn't be when the baby's here. This way I can interview people with the agency and choose the parents."

"So then why would you want to know the sex of the baby? Wouldn't that just make everything even harder on you?" Gemma asked.

"I need to know for the papers... and I just want to. Also remember that this isn't for sure."

"It sounds like you've pretty much made the decision. You know what Nikki, when I found out that you were pregnant, with my child, I was willing to step up and be a father. And your statement on money is shit! I have loads, you don't need to worry about supporting that baby. But you're way too selfish to realize that, that baby is half mine. Why the hell would you come and find us in L.A. and tell us about the baby when you were just going to do this. You're a psychotic bitch, now I remember why I hated you before we had sex." I spat at her, anger fueling my actions.

"Bro calm the fuck down, Nikki has every right to make her own decisions. You left her man. And to think we all believed you when you said that you regretted everything. Your the one who's being a bitch." Michael said as he pinned me to the wall.

"Get our hands off of me." I growled.

"My pleasure, I like everyone else don't want to be around an insensitive prick." he grumbled with one last shove into the wall, causing me to fall against it, as he stalked off.

A/N

Sorry this was short, and super dramatic, I was just wanting to get this out to you guys! 

So if your enjoying this story please, please, please check out any of my other ones. I'm going to attempt to make an updating scheduled, which should be made easier on Friday when I finally get my MacBook!

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