Forever and Always

Chapter one

***Nikki's POV***

Sometimes the mistakes in our lives are what define our futures, they're what make our lives the way they are. Mistakes can sometimes have the worst outcome imaginable, yet sometimes your mistakes can cause the best things to ever happen to you...

I used to think that mistakes were what ruined people's lives, that they were what screwed up people's futures. I used to know exactly what I wanted in life, what would make me the happiest. But the things was... I had no idea, and I never would have been able to even picture myself with the way my life has gone. Yet I was in a way... I was not happy necessarily, but I was happier than I thought I would have been.

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As I woke up, sun shone through the window onto my face. Causing me to jump up in my bed and try to block the sun with my hand as I blink my eyes to try and get used to the light. Once my eyes had adjusted, they scanned the little bedroom of an apartment I know called home, before they looked down and landed on my baby belly.

I was a month pregnant when I told my parents I was pregnant... That day holds so much meaning to me. Obviously it was the day I told my parents that I was expecting, but it was also a two weeks after Luke ripped my heart out... or as Gemma tells me the day I apparently ripped his heart out. But it was also the day of my whole life got up and left.

*~flashback~*

" Mom, Dad... I have something to tell you." I mumbled as I walked into our living room. At the sound of my voice both my parents looked up at me with a cheery smiled plastered on each of their faces, causing me to wonder how they didn't notice how flustered I was and the fact that I had to hold my hands together so that they didn't shake too much.

" Okay, shoot!" My father beamed to the point I was sure his cheeks should've ripped.

" I'm pregnant." I said with a release of breath. Both my Mom and Dad looked at me, their faces unreadable. A strong silence that filled the room, but I swear anyone could've heard the gears of their brains turning. After what felt like an eternity, there was finally a reaction from one of them. It may not have been the best reaction, but it was a reaction... Which gave me relief since I was nervously waiting for them to say something... anything.

" Who are you." My mom sighed, as she scrunched up her face to the point where she looked like the three little pigs mother.

" I'm your daughter..."

" No, no. You are definitely not my daughter." The words were like a hard slap in the face...

" Mom, please... it was a total accident." I cried as I knelt on the floor.

" No... Your not my daughter. My daughter is nothing like you. She's polite, respectful, and smart. She wears clothes that are appropriate, and studies so that she's a respected member of society. She is pure and has morals... I believe that it's pretty evident that you are none of those things." My chest hurt and I could barely breath as tears streamed down my face. I looked up towards my mom, there was so much hatred written in them. I thought that your parents were supposed to love you unconditionally.

" Is it his?" My dad boomed.

" W-whos?" I managed to ask through all the tears streaming down my face and the fact that there's no air in my lungs.

" That scumbag... We warned you about him and told you that you could never see the likes of him ever again. He's a no good piece of shit... Just like you are know. The daughter I knew would never defy use, and she should definitely not have sex with a walking std! He doesn't love you, it was just a game to him! He could never love you, and with that thing in your life know... No one will ever love you." He yelled at me as he pointed towards my stomach.

" I-i, I know he doesn't love me... he never did." My fingers ran through my hair pulling at it. As my parents yelled at me, I sat curled up holding my heart in my hands on the floor. Everything they said went in one ear and out the other. That is except for one thing.

" You have an hour to collect what you need, and get out of my house."

Before I knew it I had a bag packed with everything I needed. Clothes, some food, phone, and all the money I had saved up for university. But something stopped me from leaving. This was my childhood bedroom, my whole life was in here... But I knew for a fact that, that was not what was stopping me. There was something else. Looking around the room I couldn't put my finger on it... then it hit me.

Luke's old nirvana sweatshirt.

Slipping it into my small backpack I walked out the door without looking back. And that's when it hit me, where am I going to go? My first thought was Luke's... but he didn't want me. There was only one other place I could think of... Gemma's.

After about fifteen minutes of walking I'm standing at her door, and without me even knowing what was happening, I had knocked on the door and Gemma's mom answered while giving me a confused face.

" Hey Nikki darling, I thought you had gone on tour with the boys and Gemma?" She beamed at me, which I'd be lying if I said it didn't lighten my spirits. Gemma's mom was always like a second mom to me... I loved her so much.

" What do you mean tour?"

" They are opening up for One Direction on their tour... they've known about it for a couple months now... Gem said Luke was taking you..." What... she left me without telling me, and she knew I was pregnant. Everyone left me.

Without thinking, words began to flood from my lips.

" Oh yah the tour... that's actually what I was here for, she told me that she'd drive me to the airport with her, but I guess she's not here..."

" Would you like me to drive you?" Gemma's mom asked eagerly.

" I would love that." I said with a fake smile plastered on my face. Before I knew it I had bought a plane ticket and was on my way to the only place I could think of... California.

*~ end of flashback~*