Snippets of Our Future (Commit and Run Series #2)

Chapter 14

Chapter 14
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Visitors

"Magandang araw, mahal kong asawa at sa maganda kong anak!"

Nilapag ko ang dala naming bulaklak sa lapida ni Mommy at Lolo. Magkatabi silang inilibing, that's the easiest way for Lola to grieved them. Para kahit papaano, alam niyang magkasama si Lolo at Mommy.

Matagal ko ring hindi nadalaw si Mommy dahil nasa malayo ako at unti-unting tinutupad ang pangarap ko. I know Mommy will understand me.

I remember few memories with her. When I promised that I will have my dream come true. I will make it once I am capable of doing it.

She works for Lola back then. And the only thing I could remember is when she brings me to her work so she could pay attention to me at least.

"Promise me, you'll become an Engineer." Mom smiled at me. "I know you, Euseff. You are smart and kind, by using that you can achieve your dream. Mommy will always support you so you promise to me that you will do that, okay?"

I giggled when she pinched my cheek. "I promise. I'll make you proud, Mommy!"

Naramdaman ko ang mabilis na panunubig ng mata ko kaya pinunasan ko agad. I just diverted my attention to Lola when she started to whisper on Lolo's name carved in the stone.

Hindi ko pwedeng ipakita na mahina ako kapag naaalala ko ang nangyari noon. I still have promises I need to make true. Kapag inuna ko 'yon, mawawala ako sa sariling pokus at posibleng bumalik lahat ng sakit.

"Hi, Mom. It has been a while. Ngayon lang ulit nakauwi," I sat in front of her grave. "Guess what? We won the match last week. Well, have I told you that I am already the captain?"

Busy si Lola sa pagkausap kay Lolo kaya hindi ko muma siya ginulo. She sat on the mat I put in the floor. Kahit hindi niya sabihin, alam kong kulang ang salitang pangungulila sa nararamdaman niya para kay Lolo.

"I am still in my sophomore year. I am doing my best so I can fulfill my promises to you. I am living the life you always wanted for me." I began to feel more emotional when I said those words. "The life you always talked about you should live if it weren't because of. . . Dad."

"You always laugh at me when I draw buildings back then, not because I am not good enough but because you saw potential in me. Kaya mo nga ako tinulak at mas lalong pinaintindi sa akin ang kursong 'to noon sa pinakasimpleng salita. At paano ko matutulungan si Lola kapag itong daan ang tinahak ko."

Humingos ako. Good thing Lola did not notice that I was crying. "It didn't made me feel that you feed me with those words so I could help Lola. Ngayon, mas naiintindihan ko na kung bakit ito ang tinahak kong daan, dahil dito ako magaling." I exhaled.

God, I always do talking to Mom when I visited her but not this kind of conversation. Siguro dahil na rin sa tagal noong huli kong bisita kaya kusang lumalabas sa bibig ko ang mga bagay na nangyayari sa akin sa mga nagdaang buwan.

I still miss Mom and I don't think I could wake up one morning without missing her. Hindi ko rin alam pero kapag naiisip ko siya, parang nawawala ang pagdududa ko sa sariling kakayahan lalo na kapag papasok ako sa klase ko araw-araw.

"I kinda miss your wisdom, Mom. Though, Lola has been doing that for me, even if I never felt that I lived in an incomplete family. . . sometimes, I wonder what would happen if you are still here. . ." I wiped my tears and controlled my breathing.

"Euseff, look, there's a butterfly!" Lola chuckled. "We just need to guess if that's your Mother or your Lolo!"

Dumaan ang isang kulay dilaw na paro-paro sa harap namin pero agad ring lumapit sa puntod nila Lolo at Mommy. We waited if it would land at any of the grave and to our surprise, it landed in Mommy's grave.