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A week later:

I actually haven't posted anything on insta for a while. I checked my dms and there were a few messages from brands, small brands. They were offering small modeling jobs. I mean having a side hustle won't completely hurt. But anyway, I scrolled through my camera roll to find a picture of me to post. I landed on this.

I took it a few days ago before I was going out to the grocers

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I took it a few days ago before I was going out to the grocers. I posted it and threw my phone away. I get the worst anxiety when I post myself or anything on my instagram. It makes me feel like everyone's judging me.

....

I came back to my phone 10 minutes later after cleaning the house and checked if there were any notifications. I got a lot of replies. They weren't people I knew. They were the people who followed me before I made my account private.

"Are you the girl from pedris car last week?" One of them were.
"Are you dating Pedri? Or Gavi?"
Was another one.
The rest were similar.

I checked my story views. Aurora, Sara, Santiago, Dani, Samuel and Clara had all replied to it complimenting me. I liked my friends. I also noticed Pedri liked it.

....

I got a call from my mom saying she was visiting with the family this week.

Mom

So we're bringing your sister too

Are you gonna be staying at mine?

No we've booked a hotel

Is there a specific reason why you're randomly coming or?

Yes and no.
We're coming to see a house we've been planning on purchasing and we also wanted to see you.

Oh really? That's nice.
Sadly I have exams so I can't really spend too much time.

It's okay you can multi-task

It's my first year.

Exactly first year. Don't stress too much.

Okay I'll see you tomorrow. Bye

Tchau

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It was cold tonight but I still somehow ended up being on the terrace. At least I was warm from my blanket. I loved my terrace. I loved looking out and imagining anything and everything I ever wanted. It made life feel surreal. It made life feel possible.

I sat there drinking some warm peppermint tea I made earlier while trying to imagine what life could look like for me in the next 5 years. It's crazy thinking about it because I don't even know what I'll be having for breakfast tomorrow. Of course I know what I want to have, but who knows if I'll actually end up sticking to that plan.

I decided to call it a night after a few more minutes to prepare myself for the chaos ahead tomorrow.

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