Ba-dastoor 🥀

chapter 29

I come in my room and just went in balcony standing like everything is ended... nothing is left ...i always get hurt ..the day i thought will be good went the worst...the back hug he did if he did it earlier before all this it would give a pleasure but now it's giving me suffocation that I am stuck ,.i just told him to leave and he did...i take my dairy and noted everything

"Khushiya phir chali gayi meri life se... bhgwan ko mujhse kya problem hai ki wo kuch bhi meri life Mai nai rehne dete hai...kuch pal ke liye uss sakh ko pura Mera kar dete hai aur agle hi pal usse mujhse dur kar dete hai....har baar koi mujhe use kar chala jata hai..."

I cried and just slept... Everything is hurting me..this diary was totally about ekansh everything a single thing that made me fall for him...
When i open my eyes he was next to me..and I just turn back... I don't want to see him.. underwise i will melt..he cuddle me..but why now...not earlier...now it just hurt me . he says he need a chance just like Kiara gave to Rudra but the situation was different they had a relationship but our relation he nameless...I just put the pillow and sleep when i woke up I saw him ..i need a other room..i can't stay with him more otherwise my dicision will change seeing his upset face...i can't be rude with someone..i am just trying my best...to keep him away...his phone flashes with topper or say Meera ..he called me meri jaan..but why now not earlier...he also say Meera as meri Jaan and he giving me her name,.i silently went in balcony when i asked

Ekansh-aap mujhe pehle se janti hai...

He read my dairy...and nie he know how much madly insm.in love with him..yes i know him earlier...6 years ago...but now their is nothing...i don't think so he have right to know beacuse in some day we will again become strangers...

After dinner i just went to sleep and out the pillow between us but he removed it ...i bust out on him..and before he explain anything I just went to sleep he throw the pillows and ust cuddle me...it feel nice but eh he didn't didi it earlier was the only question... everything he is doing right is a question that why now not earlier?

When i woke up he was already sleeping.. I wanted to hug him again and sleep..i wanted to kiss on his forehead.. I want to forgive him and give another chance...but I can't..I get up but he holded my hand and mumbered...don't go Meera ...it's hurt...he still her her...it was winter then also i just put ice cubes in tuhe and  sit still...after come time when I came back he was awake ..but I ignored him..he want me to forget everything but i can't..I don't want to go in reunion......he came close to me and out vermillion in my hairs parts...but it's didn't effected me ..i needed amne who do this things and he is doing but why now not earlier only this question is stuck with me..my phone flashes Kiara i wanted to denie for shopping plan but i can't spoil her happiness because of him...

I went downstairs and made some partha and eat it with pickle... without waiting for him...but when he arrived I can see he is hurt and i want him to hurt so that he can divorce me and went to Meera..I don't want amne who is stuck...

I pull me toward him and he think it efforts me if it was earlier it would definitely but not now...but when he was called to my lips it affected me but i can't show him this.. I just can't...I was controlling...i stand still... didn't open my eyes..j can't accept him in this situation...he leave for office..and I was all alone...I just thought to scroll my insta and I saw everyone request...all his friends..i accepted the request..

Sanskaar called me and i pickup i realised it was group call..all his friends..

Sanskaar- swasti thik ho..

Swasti-haa..khosi kar rahi hui..

Samar-swasti ...plse ekansh ko rk chance do ..wo sach mai tumhare sath rehna chhta hai..