Wrong To Be His Alpha || Tk 𐤀

🔺 CHAPTER 31 🔺

Jk:"Hyung, what about your love then? I can't let you suffer like that. Love can do wonders right? I know you will win him over someday. I beg you, I know he can not accept me."

Even if Tae welcome him with open arms he believes he isn't worthy of it. He is ready to heal the other in any way possible, but to return to taehyung as they were long before, it is too much to demand from fate.

Jackson: "Love does wonders boy. But, it needs to be encouraged. He believes in me, depends on me, but love isn't the feeling he renders for this man. You loved yeon too right? Could you hold him with yourself longer?" Jackson's question follows no response. As if the person questioned has no words to respond, silence.

This silence is what scares Jackson the most. Confusion of one's own feelings are the base of destructive habits. To know the feeling and continue, to know the infatuation and suites stay far easier than not being able to comprehend the reason behind every churn, every tingle, every such notations in oneself. It is horrible.

"I didn't." Kook, finally responding to the long asked question tilts his head down in shame. The truth hurts. The fact that he didn't live Yeon yet played with the other's emotions, unintentionally, but, he did. And that counts as a sin. He is a sinner.

Jackson: "What?" Out of all the answers, this response was hardly the one to cross Jackson's mind. He didn't what? Love the omega?

Jk: "I am ashamed to accept it. But, I didn't love Yeon. I mistook the attraction for love and went on with it on my life. I literally am a traitor to his life. To their lives, their feelings." Jackson fought with himself for holding back the emotions. What comes out now is new, unexpected, unknown and definitely surprising.

Jackson: "And you tormented your first mate for years just by mistaking your attraction for love?"

Unknowingly, Jackson's voice is meekly projected to the younger. Disbelief prominent in his tone, sorrow, pooling in his eyes.

"I hate to say it, but Yes. I know tae didn't deserve it. He still deserves way better."
Convinced of this, Jungkook continues rejecting the request of getting back together.

"You are guilty?" Jackson's eyes, firm, strong, unwavering, with a strict face he asks the younger now. His tears left far behind.

"I am." The tone that Jungkook speaks with, reflects sincerity, as if all the pent up loyalty he left in the past is made to come through this confession if his.

Jackson sighs in relief. Absolutely convinced that Jungkook will take care of tae once given the chance to. With slow steps he reaches the younger, with a warm encouraging pat on the shoulder he speaks to Jungkook.

Jackson: "Then go heal him. I have always prepared for letting him go and I never had him in the first place. You need him and he needs you."

Acceptance. That is all that is left in this deal of love, loving and being loved, letting go, grabbing on and keeping the feeling. A feeble yet heavy weighing word of 'yes' is all that is needed for the assurance that Jackson desires.

Jk: "You-think I am worthy?" Voice cracking with expectation, eyes glassy of hammering future in him, Jungkook asks the older for a confirmation. How often he has imagined himself by the side of tae, loving him cherishing him, caring for him in abundance. But, never had he thought that he will be given a second chance, never had the thought if him being worthy of all those crossed his mind.

Jackson: "I have seen him breaking due to your absence, I have seen him crying, pretending and holding back the sadness, I have witnessed his whole journey through years. But, I have never seen him being as happy as he was the day you brought flowers for him. Delusional, albeit, he craves for you."

Jackson pats the younger's head, various feelings conveyed through the simple, small, kind act. A comfort that kook has searched, forever it seems now. Stars in the nightless sky, shelter to the homeless, sun in the clouds, Jackson is a sunshine who shines so bright that he burns himself, provides happiness to the other's while his own self faces the demise to his brightest soul.

No moment is wasted anymore, Jungkook plunges himself in the arms of the older. This is what having a brother truly feels like, probably.

Jackson welcomes him with open arms, knowing what the other needs at this very moment. In the whole world of pretended sympathy, fake love and discourteous two faced creatures, true feelings are cherished, like diamonds, the purest of what heart has is never hidden for long.

Jk: "Thank you, Hyung. For everything."

Jackson: "I will rather have another hug instead."

After the whole time of darkness the two finally chuckle with happiness.

Jk: "We will heal Tae right?"

Jackson: "Yes, we will. I know he will be okay."

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Author N-Tk 𐤀