Unwanted Bride

CHAPTER 36

Bad things happened on how we respond to them, it defines our character and quality in life. We can choose to sit in sadness and we can choose to sit in happiness. We can choose if we want to rise from the pain and we can choose if we want to stay from the pain. That means only one thing, you build your own destiny.

Everything went into regret, when I came back here I promise to myself that if I ever met him I will smile and if he asked me for my forgiveness then I'll give it to him. But he didn't ask for my forgiveness the first time that we meet, what he ask is, for me to come back in his life. And now mas pinagsisihan ko ang napunta ako sa ganitong sitwasyon.

It's been one week since nagsimula yung project na to. I really can't understand why my manager trust this man so much, na papayag siyang iiwan lang ako basta-basta dito sa photoshoot. And I don't know why this damn shoot almost lasted for one week!

Kung tutuusin pwede na akong umuwi dahil hindi naman araw-araw yung photoshoot ko. Halos nalibot din ata namin yung mga magagandang tanawin dito sa Flor de Invierno, I also witness the locality this place have. I enjoyed the food, the spot, the people and the culture but something is bothering me. I feel uncomfortable at the same time lalo na nung natanggap ko ang message.

Nang mabasa ko ang message na yun which is that sender is asking me for justice. Hustisya para kanino? Sa oras na yun bigla nalang kumabog ng malakas yung puso ko, yung parang lalabas na sa ribcage ko kaya mabilis kong pinahinga yung sarili ko at pilit inalis sa utak ko yung message na yun. I even take sleeping pills just to fall asleep faster. Kinabukasan nun and the rest of the days pilit kong inaalis yun sa isip ko hindi ko yun sinabi kay Chase at kahit bakas ng message na yun sa mukha ko hindi ko pinapakita sa kanya lalo na kapag nag vivideo call kami, I don't want him to worry about me. Ayukong dumagdag sa problema niya.

This past few days napapansin kong problemado si Chase, base on his voice and to his face everytime na mag uusap kami sa call or through video chatting, halatang halata yun sa kanya. He looks so tired, I wanted to ask him but pinipigilan ko ang sarili ko dahil nakikita ko ang effort nya kung paano nya tinatago sa mukha at boses nya ang pagod, dahil ayaw niya yung ipakita sakin. Pero doon siya nagkakamali dahil kung gaano niya kagustong itago doon ko mas lalong nakikita.

May mga pagkakataon din na nagtatalo kami lalo na kapag nagiging makulit siya, lagi niya kasi akong tinatanong about sa work at kapag naman sinasabihan ko siya na hindi talaga maiiwasan si Drake, nagagalit siya o di kaya ay magtatampo. Pero hindi din yun pinapatagal ni Chase, ayaw na ayaw niyang natutulog ako na hindi kami magkaayos. Ang sabi niya saakin baka matatagalan pa siya bago makauwi, maybe exactly one month. Sobrang tagal pa, one week ko pa nga lang siyang hindi nakikita nanghihina na ako. I hope I can endure the next next week. Gustuhin niya mang dalawin ako pero ako yung umaayaw, pagod na siya at baka mas mapagod pa siya kapag nagkita kaming dalawa.

I hope the rest of the days will be great pero heto ako ngayon, looking at my reflection in the simple vanity mirror. I look so beautiful and elegant at the same time, wearing my Chanel backless red gown which shows the half of my rose tattoo partnered with my Retro Rhinestone pumps and my Hermis hand bag. I spray my Maison Francis Kurkdjian perfume which cost a P16,000, yeah so expensive but I like it's smell. Instead of my Victoria's Secret perfume this one is also my favorite and I just use it if there's a big occasion.

I take a deep breath, today is Saturday and Drake tell me na magkakaroon ng birthday celebration dito yung may-ari which is kaibigan niya. I really don't want to come pero sinabihan ako ni Drake na gusto ako mameet nung tao plus sila lang din naman daw ng mga staff at family nito ang dadalo, pinaunlakan ko na din dahil kahit papaano maayos yung mga service nila tsaka mababait yung mga staff. It's a small but formal party lang naman. Tsaka nadoon din naman si Vicky yung photographer ko na bakla.