𝐅𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐥 ✔

XX

Do we ever really get out of the dark, black hole in our life called depression?

I can feel myself, falling deeper and deeper into it. For a moment I thought I was fine, but guess what?
I am not. In fact, I am so far away from it that I didn't even realize that I was sinking way deeper and faster than last time. That was because I started to ignore it, I kept telling myself that I was fine when I was far from it.

Pain never goes away, no matter what I do. I want it to, I just want to feel fu*king happy once more, damn it! I am sick of turning to other dangerous ways to deal with all this shit. I don't want to feel so hollow all the time. I miss it so fu*king much, that feeling of being cheerful and ecstatic about my life.

Every day I wake up, I am just so exhausted. Like, how the he*l is it even possible to feel so tired after literally doing nothing?

I want it all to end so bad that no one has any idea of the messed up sh*t that's goes through my head, every single second, minute and day.

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