𝐅𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐥 ✔

XI

Abuse.
There are many types of abuse going out there. You can't always just cut the abuser out of your life, it's not that simple.
For me, the best way to avoid it is to stay silent, so I do it. Even though it doesn't always save me from the abuser, it's just better to suffer in silence than letting the world actually see.

That's because once the people around you see what you have gone through, all they do is JUDGE. One of the things which could make it even worse for you is that, because then you can't ever make them understand, no matter how much
you try to.

I wish I could escape this constant cycle of pain, loneliness, depression, suffering and struggle to keep living.

You know, I did give up once. I did it, I tried to end this aching hell that I am stuck in but even then I was not successful. And you see, the people around me just took it for something entirely different, it never ever even occurred to them what truly happened.

But that's fine, it has to be, because I really just want to experience and feel how the world is outside of this toxic and destructive environment that I find myself surrounded in.

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