𝐅𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐥 ✔

XI

Will it ever be over?
Will this deep, black void inside of me ever be filled?
Or will it just torture me internally for the rest of my life?

It's sad, isn't it?
How nowadays, I feel way more lonely with people around me than when I am just by myself. Hell, I would do right about anything to feel something. Even pain in its old, bitter & gloomy state.
At least I'll feel something.

I don't even know how to describe the ocean of hopelessness I find myself in every day I wake up and look in the mirror.

All I see is a weak, broken little girl who whines too much about little things that should not bother her.
A child who has disappointed everyone around her and someone who is a burden to this world.

I hope that someday, I'll feel better. That one day I can sleep peacefully and be proud of the person I am. Not hate myself for every little thing I do.

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