Empty, lonely and most of all afraid.
Why? Because I don't know what to do, how to do and why I even still try to do it.
Once, it used to be everything to me, But now?
All I feel is afraid that they will scold me, hit me etc if I don't do it properly.
I sometimes see some glimpses of that happiness which I got from this profession that it would fill me with complete joy. Now it just fills me with complete fuc*ing sadness, I don't know when that feeling changed so drastically, but it did.
And now I just hate myself so so much.
Because it was the one thing that I thought would never change, something that would not leave me in my worst and best days.
I used to love talking to people, getting to know new things about them, their dreams, hopes and their aspirations.
But now?
All I want is to isolate myself from everyone and everything in this world. It's just too fuc*ing dark out there. Love is after all just an ILLUSION.
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Thank you so much for reading, it means a lot! 🖤❤️🩹
VOUS LISEZ
𝐅𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐥 ✔
Poésie" 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐈 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐭 𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐬𝐨 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐞." . . . Some poems I write to escape my reality. Thanks for reading ❤️🩹
