I dragged my hair into a ponytail, before putting on my shoes and coat. It had been about 3 months since Natasha's death. I was still as guilt wracked as when Clint pulled me up off the side of the cliff. I couldn't forget what happened. Every day it played in my head, more vivid than when it actually happened. I heard a knock on the door.
"Yeah?" I asked.
The door opened and Clint came into the room.
"How are you?" he asked.
"How do you think I am?" I asked.
Clint sighed, looking at the floor.
"I tried contacting her sister. I've been trying for ages. I can't find anything," Clint said.
I stood fiddling the rings on my fingers. I'd managed to find a phone number to contact Yelena on, but there had been no response.
"I'm going out," I said, walking towards the door.
Clint grabbed my arm gently, pulling me back.
"Where?" he asked.
I bit my lip.
"The forest," I lied.
I was really planning on going to Natasha's grave again. Clint seemed to know I was lying though.
"For a liar you're not very good at lying you know?" he teased.
I looked at him. I saw only concern in his eyes. Backing into my room a little, I apologised.
"Y/n, I know you miss Natasha - we all do. But you can't keep doing this to yourself," Clint began.
"Doing what to myself?" I asked, although I knew exactly what he meant.
"Locking yourself in here, not talking to anyone, only going out to Nat's grave."
"I'm an adult Clint, I can do what I want."
"Maybe, but you're still young. Why do you think Natasha persuaded us all to let you stay with us?"
I shrugged.
"You were 18. You had nobody else to go to, the Red Room murdered everyone you knew."
I flinched when he said 'Red Room'. Clint moved his hand down to mine and held it comfortingly.
"You were like a daughter to Natasha. She wouldn't want you spending your life regretting what did or didn't happen."
I felt tears prick at my eyes again. It was true. I was the youngest widow there. Natasha had taken down the Red Room with Yelena, and Natasha took me with her because I had nobody else. The other widows either had family or were old enough to look after themselves.
"I just want to visit her grave," I mumbled, trying to hold back the tears that were threatening to fall.
"I know," Clint replied. "I just don't want you to be mourning for Nat when you can be having a life."
Clint seemed to understand. I nodded.
"Do you want me to drive you there?" he asked.
"It's fine," I replied, shaking my head. "Thankyou Clint."
He smiled, saying, "No problem kid."
I punched him playfully on the arm, before going downstairs. I saw Laura in the kitchen, so I went over.
"Hey y/n," she greeted me.
"I'm just going out with the car for a bit," I said, picking up the car keys.
"Alright, be safe out there," Laura called as I headed towards the door.
I pulled up the car on a flat space only a few minutes walk away from Natasha's gravestone. I got out, putting the car keys in my pocket. I began to walk down the track, listening to the wildlife.
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Me and Natasha sat in the compound, laid on a table - bored as usual.
"Where do you want to be buried if you die?" I asked her as we stared at the ceiling.
Natasha lay silent for a moment, before replying with, "A forest. Somewhere where nature is free to grow and live. Somewhere peaceful. That's where I'd like to be buried."
I turned my head to look at her. There were black bags under her eyes. I knew she'd been struggling to cope with the loss of Yelena, even if it was a year ago.
"She'll come back you know?" I asked.
Natasha grunted.
"Everyone will. Wanda, Yelena, Bucky, Clint's family..."
I turned to look back at the ceiling. I felt Natasha put her hand on mine.
"Все будет хорошо... надеюсь..." she says. (Everything will be okay... I hope...)
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As I turned the corner, I saw someone at Natasha's grave, their back to me. I stood and watched for a couple of minutes, then began to walk over. Standing behind the person, I said, "Everyone really misses her."
The figure whipped around. I blinked in surprise, then stumbled back a few steps. She looked confused.
"You're Yelena, aren't you?" I asked in a whisper.
Yelena shrugged, trying to hide the sadness in her eyes.
"How would you know?" she asked.
"I knew Natasha..." I whispered.
"Y-you knew Natasha?" Yelena asked, her voice shaking a little.
I nodded.
"You both saved me from the Red Room. Natasha took me to the Avengers. I had nobody else."
Yelena stared at you.
"Were you there when..." she trailed off.
"Yes..." I replied, looking down. "I know what happened. I was on the cliff with her."
Yelena stepped closer to me, her eyes searching mine.
"What happened?"
I went over to Natasha's grave and crouched down beside it.
"She sacrificed herself for all of us."
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Marvel one-shots
FanfictionLiterally just a bunch of Marvel one-shots including many Marvel characters. I will mainly include: - Natasha Romanoff - Bucky Barnes - Avengers - Agents Of Shield - Guardians Of The Galaxy Requests are always open and I'm looking for ideas! TW: Thi...