Butterflies ʲᵒˢʰᵘᵃ ʳⁱᶜʰᵃʳᵈˢ

Fifty-three

April 25th, 2020

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LA

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Narrative:

Vanessas birthday dinner went really well. Ben and Josh got along, which wasn't exactly expected but it was really nice for Vanessa to see them interact that way. Vanessa went home with Josh and spent the night with him. They didn't do anything besides sleep because they were both exhausted from dinner and the rest of the day. Vanessa's been spending almost all of her free time with Josh or talking to Josh. Josh didn't have a lot of freetime. Being a new influencer, he was always in meetings, filming, or editing.

Recently, Vanessa had really focusing on her music. She'd been writing songs a lot more frequently, especially about the rape and a lot of songs about the relationships in her life. With the influence of Josh, she's also been looking at music studios recently. Vanessas really enjoyed writing her music and watching her music and possible albums come together. In 3 weeks, Vanessa has to go to Pasadena where AGT is filmed. She's decided she wants her parents, Bryce, Josh, Cooper, and Anna backstage.

Now, she was spending time with Josh before he had to film a youtube video with Bryce and Jaden.

Vanessa- We should go somewhere. You know, like just the two of us, away from everything. I feel like I never see you.

Josh glances down at me from his phone. I was laying on his chest with his arm around me.

Josh- Yeah I know. I've just been busy lately. I'm sorry. If I can get away from work, we could for sure do something just the two of us.

I nod, resting my head against his chest again.

Vanessa- Was this a mistake?

Josh- Was what a mistake?

Vanessa- Getting back together. Maybe we still aren't ready.

Josh adjusts himself so that he's sitting up. I sit up to and I meet his eyes. Josh takes my hands and brings one hand to his lips and kisses it gently.

Josh- It was not a mistake. We're making it work the best that we can, okay? If you need more, I'll try harder but I can't lose you again.

I nod slightly, adjusting my head. As I lay on his chest, I listen to his heart beat. Being new to LA and the whole new influencer was hard and I didn't think it would be easy. I just didn't realize Josh would be so busy all the time. He was right, we were making it work the best we could, but it didn't feel like enough.

While Josh was filming his video, Cooper and Hannah stopped by sway with the baby.

Cooper- So, V, how's it going? It's been a minute since we've talked.

Cooper says as I hold his child.

Vanessa- Everything's normal now, I guess. Josh and I are back together and it's going okay but he's really busy and I feel like I never see him sometimes. I know this comes with the whole social media thing, but it sucks you know?