Ruthless Emperor

26.Crystal

Guilt is the worst feeling ever . It makes you hate yourself and hating yourself comes with a free gift of suicidal thoughts. Maybe that's why guilt is the most painful companion of death.

When I look into the mirror , I no longer recognize the girl I see . I only know that she's someone who is a self centered , worst sister of this whole world.

Why ?

[Flashback]

I look into kiaan's eyes with nothing but rage when I see Abhimanyu bleeding on the floor. The one who did this to him is my brother . Although I always knew it Abhimanyu will end up something like this but this war is far from ending .

As if I shut my brain and heart inside a box and spit out whatever I know in the form of words "Shut the fuck up kiaan Raghuvanshi " I snarl and everyone looks shocked except for him . Maybe he saw it coming .

"Crystal don't " I hear ivaan but I'm going to listen to nobody today .

"Kyu bhai Har baar ham kyu chup ho Jaye iski jo marji ati hai ye vhi karta hai toh mai kyu chup ho jau"

"Chup hojaaa crystal" anish steps closer to kiaan.

But his best friend now voices "no, let her speak , go on little sister " which aggravates me more. After all I'm his little sister.

"But let me tell you one thing " he steps towards me and I flinch "I'll kill your boyfriend, you and Ivaan and everyone present here if I find anyone using those words for the love of my life"

Anger seeps into my body , he really sees nobody in front of himself .

And realization is so painful that I growl "Because you are SELFISH ,you are a bloody self-centered MONSTER , you see nothing over yourself and your desires . Ishani is my friend too but you are a damn pshycho . You have no conscience. "

My eyes search for ishani and I tell her"If you trust me ishu , don't even look at him again , or think of him . Run as far as you can . jo apni family ka ni hua tera kaise hoga . Bloody ego-centric, self absorbed maniac "

Although I wanted her to have a future with kiaan and bring him happiness but I no longer want my best friend to be inside this hell .

"Ye sab vo janti hai " kiaan very proudly declares without even looking at her.

"Bas hogya tum dono ka band kro ye sab " my eldest brother grabs my shoulder but I push him away .

Not today Ivaan .

"My mom died first ,
then even my dad died,
ye kyu ni margya tha " I spit out and my heart sinks to my stomach when his eyes turn red . Not with rage this time but with tears . Instantly , I realize Kiaan Raghuvanshi shouldn't look like that because it is so damn painful to watch .

"Crystal!!!! " anish barks at me and when I shift my gaze to him a tight slap lands on my cheek which hurts so bad . I look to my right and ishani stands there looking at me with teary eyes and so much rage.

"As your brother he is protective of you , he wants you to be strong . For you he killed the man he was most scared of and yes Crystal he wanted to die . I stopped him . So you can blame it on me " her words pierce my soul and if I could jump into the ocean I really would. For my whole life , I was proud that nobody can love Kiaan like I do but today I ruined everything . Kiaan keeps looking at me with his poker face and the tears are gone . He walks away with Ishani while I know , I lost him forever.

After crying for hours in the washroom I go to abhimanyu's room but my heart stops beating for the scene that fills my vision.

"That fucking hurts" abhi winces as kiaan looks at him with vexation. All other have left the room.